This space is dedicated to the proposition that we need to know the history of the struggles on the left and of earlier progressive movements here and world-wide. If we can learn from the mistakes made in the past (as well as what went right) we can move forward in the future to create a more just and equitable society. We will be reviewing books, CDs, and movies we believe everyone needs to read, hear and look at as well as making commentary from time to time. Greg Green, site manager
When Singer-Songwriter
Nick Collins Broke His Silence-And Gave A Die-Hard Fan His Autograph
By Sarah Le
Moyne
Sometimes you
can’t win and if anybody read my first archival caption on the reclusive
legendary singer-song-writer Nick Collins you know that I have been a fan of his
since I was a blushing teenage girl filled with romantic notions (still am except
as it turned out it was, is for other women) and say his Moonlight Rock
(which I am playing in the background as I write this) would drive me crazy.
The “sometimes you can’t win” part is that somebody, some evil snitch, fink,
stoolie saw the caption when Googling in search of “Nick Collins” for his or
her own reasons, maybe romantic, maybe not and told Jenny that I was still all
swoony over the guy. Worse picked up on my closing sentiment that I wished that
I had an autograph from him.
All hell broke
loose between Jenny and me over that one but not for the reason you might
suspect. As a result of my plaintive plea somebody e-mailed and told me that
she could get me in contact with Nick Collins’ press and publicity agents and
maybe they could get me in to see Nick for an “interview.” The idea being that
during that interview I could gush out my sentiments and beg on hands and knees
for an autograph.
I was all set
to go after arrangements, byzantine arrangements by the way at a hotel, a chain,
maybe Marriott and not the top suite either, were made by his “fixer man” Jeremy.
Jeremy told me that he had gone out of his way to get me the interview after
Nick had seen my article about artful Rhonda and her quest, her eternal quest,
for that now valuable autograph. And my own plaintive plea for an autograph. Then
all hell broke loose at home. Jenny does not understand this long-term
infatuation, that it is totally possible to have a schoolgirl crush without[O1] it meaning anything sexual or otherwise.
I, we have never seriously discussed attitudes toward men, but she is probably off
of the Nick Collins tirade the first time and now that she has threatened to
leave more hostile than I am to the gender.
Jenny totally
discounted how important teenage passions linger as with Nick Collins whom I first
heard on the radio at home on some parents gone out Saturday night and I was minding
my younger sisters when I heard his cover of To Each This Own, a slow dreamy
ballad filled with sentimental longings (of which I was filled with as well
more toward the male side then until I got rid of some of my confusion at a
Girl Scout camp) and then switching up to Tumbling Down, a classic
Collins rocker. That pair along with the bluesy Don’t Bring On Your Love So
Strong staples of my youthful infatuation (and still can move me).
I mentioned before
this funny story when you think about it. There was, is very little really
known about Nick, most of the stuff in the fan and celebrity magazines was,
well, bullshit, press agent hand-out stuff or stuff whoever wrote the story
made up. Jeremy had a big hand in that especially the recluse build-up like he was
some male Greta Garbo. The legendary parties he supposedly threw were real
enough but strictly record company or later film company galas-minus Nick. Some
people speculated if his reclusiveness had
to do with his slight speech impediment, others his tough Billie Holiday-like
upbringing and yet others that he was so strung out on junk that he had to
hide, had to hide the pain too I would think or risk arrest or bad publicity exposure
when junkies were not well thought of no
matter how good they made audiences feel through their pain.
Eventually
Jenny came home after she did leave for a few days to cool off and I got my
interview with Nick Collins at the Best Western dink hotel out by the airport
(Nick told me he liked places near the airports in case he wanted to slip away
quickly). He turned out to be very personable and flirty a little unlike his publicity
maze. He did mention as a cautionary tale to young kids that he had been strung
out on drugs for years but he had been clean for about a year. He told Jeremy
to keep up the reclusive noise and blather so he would not be bothered while his
life was hanging in the balance one day at a time. Said I could say that information so I guess he
is ready for the female crush now. Get this though as we finished with our
interview and I was ready to put on my big push for an autograph he reached into
the coffee table drawer and pulled out an autographed photograph of himself
signed to me. Quirky guy. And no, I will not show Jenny the damn thing.
Aint Got No
Time For Corner Boys Down In The Streets Making All That Noise -With the 1983
Film “Diner” In Mind
By Lance
Lawrence
[Seemingly
2019, the fiftieth anniversary year for many things important in my life and
the lives of the still standing corner boys from in front of Tonio’sPizza Parlor “up the Downs” in the Acre
section of North Adamsville like Sam Lowell, Frank Jackman, Seth Garth and Josh
Breslin are being bombarded with sad-eyed remembrances, and a few glad ones too
(that latter named individual by the way
not really an Acre corner boy but we
“adopted” him after we ran into him out in San Francisco in the Summer of Love,
1967 since the “Bottoms” where he grew up in Olde Saco up in Maine was just a
French-Canadian version of Tonio’s corner boys’ Acre)
It probably
started when Sam Lowell decided that he would try to put a committee together
from his Veterans Peace Action group, a group that I had been a member of for
many years but have now given some serios medical problems reduced myself to
supporter status, who would help compile
what is projected to be an archival effort to gather remembrances from the many
members of that organization who did some or all of their military service in
1969 during the Vietnam War like he did. Put those writings in some kind of
book form (as Alex James had had his youngest brother Zack, who writes here
occasionally, edit and publish around remembrances of the later lamented Pete
Markin, more about him below). And for the less literary types maybe a video to
gather in their thoughts as oral history. (That fact, hard fact now that many
members of VPA from World War II and Korea have passed on finally making the
committee realize that the Vietnam-era veterans were heavily concentrated after
1968, after even the lousy government knew the war was lost. Those who served
earlier, like their World War II fathers and uncles, had a different take, a
more patriotic view of their service.)
According to
Sam there seemed as had happened on other such occasions, as the committee
gathered steam to be a strange confluence of other, seeming unrelated events
which further triggered those 1969 thoughts. The obvious one if only as a
counterexample, to me at least, was the totally different world represented by
Woodstock (an event that I was slated to go to attend since a friend of mine
had both an automobile and some line on tickets, but we couldn’t get through. Couldn’t
get within fifteen or twenty miles of the old farm the roads were so clogged
and by the time the rains came we were glad we shifted to Saratoga Springs and
a lively night of heavy dope and some folk music at Caffe Lena’s which is still
operating in that town. For those wondering why I was not among the military
class of 1969 I had done my naval service directly out of high school after I
graduated in 1964, so I was done with that by 1968).
Adding to
the stockpile of events although less obvious but more critical to what Sam was
attempting to do with this memory archival program was being promoted by a
professor from Yale who was running a touring exhibition complete with displays
and a book about the anti-war GI Resistance that sprung up and became more
public in 1969 and did a great deal to slow down, a little, the war machine.
That exhibit, endorsed by VPA, actually had been put together by a collective
of academics who in their pre-doctoral youths, or maybe while they were
pursuing those careers had been activists and counsellors as the GI Resistance
gained a head of steam. In any case the link-up between Sam’s project and that
cohort of professors is still an open question.
Finally, and
this may be more to the point when the deal goes down, Sam had heard on NPR a
segment about the famous Life magazine issue that featured photographs
of all the military men killed in Vietnam in one week in June 1969. One of the
guys featured was a kid from a town near us, maybe twenty or thirty miles to the
east of us Quincy, Massachusetts, who had with his buddies dropped out of high
school, joined the Marines and he had laid his head down there in that fateful
summer. Very different from the stuff my corner boy guys were thinking, very
much closer to the core of feelings of the average guy who found himself in the
military whatever he might have though of the war.
All that was
so much in the background but for me, for my remembrances what triggered my sad
ass thoughts was when Sam in that article mentioned the names of the late Pete
Markin and the still standing Frank Jackman. Pete (whose name brings a tear to
my eye every time I say or write it) was this whirling dervish who kept bugging
us about a new day coming, a new breeze coming across the land. Yeah, a guy
with big fat dreams, a guy who saw if we beat the bastards back maybe, just
maybe, desperately poor people like those of us who grew up in the Acre back in
the 1950s and 1960s might get a break. Had us believing all that stuff. Forcing
us to coffeehouses in Cambridge, poetry sessions on Joy Street on Beacon Hill
(and on lonesome Friday nights reciting, reciting if you can believe this,
Allan Ginsberg’s Howla poem we
dismissed then, and here I am using the term of art of the times, as nothing but
a fag joke when all we cared about was girls, cars, and sex, heterosexual sex),
and more willingly drove us crazy until we agreed to join him out in San
Francisco during the Summer of Love in 1967.
But as Sam
said in his recent musings about 1969 Pete could talk the talk but in the end
despite his enormous cloud puff dreams he could not walk the walk. Without
going into detail after Pete was drafted, went to Vietnam, saw and did stuff he
seldom talked about all the stuffing kind of went out of him. He drifted, got
into drugs, sobered up for a while and then falling down again wound up in
Southern California with what would later be called “brothers under the
bridge,” guys who couldn’t relate to the “real world” after Vietnam and created
their own alternative communities under bridges and near railroad tracks,
places like that. Leave it to Pete though as in tough shape as he was in to
gather in the stories of these guys and win some literary award for doing so.
In the end though he never lost that hunger he knew from about day one of his
life, the hunger of not having enough, of not being on easy street. That hunger
would drive him to Mexico and some ill-thought out deal to jump on easy street
through some busted drug deal. All he got for his efforts was a lonesome place
in some potter’s field in Sonora, and a million tears of what might have been
from his distraught corner boys.
Yeah, Pete
fell down, fell down hard and once the glow of the 1960s began to fade, guys
like Sam and a few others who wish not to be named went to drugs and booze to
take the pain away and which I can say took Sam and the rest several attempts
and many years to get sober from. Still we had, what we now call our bright
shining light, we had Frank Jackman who Sam mentioned in that article about Life
magazine’s somber photo array who had travelled a different course from those
guys who laid down their precious heads in the summer of 1969.
That “now”
part with Frank Jackman coming from our not understanding then what he did in
the summer of 1969 in agonizingly deciding to refuse the orders to Vietnam the
Army laid on him. No, that is not right either it was not some misunderstanding
of Frank’s way but as Sam pointed out a visceral hatred for what he was doing.
I would be the first to see what Frank had done and accepted responsibility for
after he got out of the stockade (read Sam’s article to get some details of how
Frank wound up in the stockade, courted that result in fact) But other guys, guys
like Sam, took several years to reconcile with our quiet corner boy. See
whether we liked it or not once you were in the military you did as ordered
even when you knew it was dead ass wrong. Maybe if Frank had resisted, been a
draft resister we would have thought better of him and his work but probably
not since we didn’t like the draft resisters centered around Arlington Street
Church in Boston any better however right they turned out to be in the
end.
Realistically
the only corner boy who could have gotten away at the time with what Frank did
was Pete Markin, on some theory that he was a flake and it made sense for him
to resist. But see he didn’t resist, didn’t think much of what Frank did either
until he found himself among the “lost boys” down in the arroyos and canyons of
Sothern California and realized how brave Frank had been to take on the monster
almost alone.
Below is a
review of a very different earlier group of forever corner boys. I wonder if
they would shed a tear even today for a fallen comrade like Pete, Pete Markin
was fell down in the big mess of history.]
*******
Recently I
was watching a DVD from 1982, Diner,
a film about a bunch of guys in 1959 Baltimore who hung out at, well, a diner
and hence the title of the film. The cast of the film was a veritable who’s who
of male stars (and one female Ellen Barkin) who came of cinematic age in the
1980s, guys like Mickey Rourke and Kevin Bacon who are still putting their
shoulders to the wheel in the film industry. What had attracted me about the
film from the blurb you get on each film these days from Amazon, Netflix, hell,
even blogs from citizen film reviewers strutting their stuff in a democratic
agetrying to sniff the life out of
professional reviewers who despite their better grasp of cinematic history are
still in thrall to their subjective tastes, was beside the diner motif which is
always attractive to me and which I will discuss in more detail below was the
idea that these guys were still hanging together in their early twenties when
the old corner boy high school days were long past and when by rights hanging
for guys like them were well past (and a few years later for me and my guys). Sure
high school drop-outs, usually having been confined to industrial arts class
when they were looking for something speedier like fast cars and occasional
armed robbery hung the corners forever, shepherded the next generation of
corner boys as some wizened old men who were usually laughed at (behind their
backs) as losers and “lost boys.” Once in a while a guy, a stay in town guy,
maybe if from and Irish family and the youngest son would stay home and take
care of widowed mother and to blow off steam, to get out of the fucking house
and stop being treated like twelve year would hold a wall up (and because of
some unspoken “seniority” system or just because he had held that wall up in
his time would be left alone).
So a clot or
maybe cohort is better of corner boys well past hanging out holy goof time compared to nine to five work ethos, marriage,
marry young ethos, kids, not too many like their parents but also done at a
young age and that ever present sickle hanging over your head-“how the fuck did
I get into this action.” Maybe started drinking a little heavier or hit the
sniff box, checked a few roving eyes, started thinking about lottery numbers
but mainly feeling that those old corner boys might have been on to something,
maybe had a cure.
I had
watched this film with a friend, Sam Lowell, whom I have known since our corner
boy days in Riverdale about forty miles west of Boston back in the early 1960s.
Sam Lowell is a fairly well-known, or used to be fairly well-known, free-lance
music and film critic for lots of publications great and small, some long gone
and some still around like Rolling Stone
before he consciously started slowing down as he has reached retirement age. In
the interest of full disclosure he was the guy who said I would like the film and
would I come over, watch with him, and compare notes with him after the film
was over. He was writing what he called a “think” review for American Film Today about “buddy” films
which had something like a heyday in the 1980s between the guys who starred
collectively in this film, the Brat Pack and those who came of cinematic age
through the various film adaptations of S.E. Hinton’s male-centered “buddy”
films, guys like Matt Dillon, the drugstore cowboy complete with sage mentor
beat daddy William Burroughs, he of Naked Lunch fame.
So after the
showing we compared notes the most important one which we both agreed and which
he used in his review was how many of the actions of the corner boys in the
film were very much like ours although we were younger than them when we did those
things (in the film they weren’t called “corner boys” nor did they call
themselves that but that my friends is what they were-no question as Sam likes
to say)
Here’s what
Sam said about that key question:
“Hey, around my
way, around my growing up working class neighborhood out in Riverdale about
forty miles west of Boston in the early 1960s they called them, anybody who
thought about the matter like some errant wanderingand digging down at the base of society not their
usual abode sociologists wondering about alienation among the lower classes, or
who acted on behalf of a half terrified society (who also worried about nuclear
bombs and commies under every bed) on the premise like the cops who kept a
sharp eye on any possible criminal activity- corner boys. Hell, we called
ourselves corner boys with a certain amount of bravado and without guile since
we hung, what the heck, we hung on the corners of our town. Above all hung
around the corner of Jimmy Jake’s Diner over on Walnut and Main Streets (not
the one down by the river that was strictly for tourists and parents).
(Corner boys which
would be immortalized in Bruce Springsteen’s song, Jersey Girl, with
the line. “aint got no time for corner boys down in the street making all that
noise” and that was the truth-the “making all that noise” part anyway. Also through
the S.E. Hinton books which we did not know about at the time, as least I did
not know about and I was “the Bookworm” along with “the Scribe” so I knew about
what was what with books. The other guys could have given a fuck about books
except maybe porn stuff or comics. Best of all they loved comic books with
soft-core porn underneath anchored by luscious young women scantily clothed
leaving much to youthful imaginations available on the magazine rack at Dell’s
Market).
A working Riverdale
definition: corner boys, those without much dough, those without a weekend date
and no money for a weekend date even if a guy got lucky enough to draw some
female companionship, some girl and there were not that many who didn’t care
about a “boss” car, say a’57 two-toned
preferable red and white Chevy the boss of “boss” to sit up front in and preen herself
and would accept the bus as a mode of
transportation, thus seldom lucky since only nerdy girls or whatever we called
girls with brains but no looks would descend to that level, hung around blessed
Jimmie Jake’s Parlor “up the Down” (and don’t ask me why it was called that it
just was as far back as anybody remembered including my maternal grandparents
who were born there although why nobody knows) and, well, hung out. Hung out
trying to do the best we could which involved mostly the aforementioned girls
and larcenies or plans for larcenies. And if defeated in either endeavor any
particular night then there was always a couple of slices of Jimmy Jake’s secret
formula pizza sauce to die for delight and a small Coke or if you had a few
more coins the hamburger plate with French fries piled almost to the sky it
seemed. Just so you know we really hung around in late high school planning
larcenies great and small (great the theft of some young woman’s virtue, small
the midnight creeps through back doors of certain houses but maybe no more
should be mentioned since perhaps the statute of limitations has not run out).
So when I saw
the film under review, Diner, with a cast of up and coming actors
who all went on to other films and saw that they were five guys, count ‘em five,
who in 1959 in the great city of Baltimore hung around a diner talking the talk
in between bites of French fries and gravy (against our culinary choice of
pizza slices or un-gravied fries, a sacrilege if we had known about the matter)
I knew that they were kindred spirits. Knew that despite the several years
different in time since they were all twenty-something gathering together for a
wedding of one of their members around Christmas time they were from the same
species… “
That pretty
much summed up the main point we discussed that night, and during subsequent
nights as well, but there were others, other stories that were stirred up from
that viewing. Some long forgotten, and maybe that was just as well but other
which one or the both of us remembered out of some fog of war moment. Since Sam
was writing a generic review of buddy films a lot of what he and I talked was
“left on the floor” as we used to call the bullshit stuff we would throw out
without batting an eyelash on lonesome John weekend nights and in summer almost
every night. Those stories, some of them anyway, the ones I was involved in I
decided to write down in a journal, a diary if you like that word better, and
present the next time the surviving members of our crowd got together to cut up
old touches (an old-fashioned word we used all the time but when I used it once
with the sister of corner boy the late Al Stein she claimed to have never heard
the expression before). So here goes guys and although I was not the Bookworm early
on or the Scribe who I swear was born with a book in hand or at least some
silly dictionary back in the day I later turned into a late-blooming voracious
reading and I hope you picked up the habit too.
Sam would mention in passing in his review about how hanging
around guys in Baltimore and Riverdale were totally committed to betting on
almost anything. Part of that betting trait was the need to “make a score,”
make some dough for immediate dates but a lot of it was a real idea that the
roll of the dice was going to be the only way to get out from under. Sure a lot
of it was betting on sports outcomes especially on the then lowly Red Sox and
high-riding Celtics but nothing was off-limits from what, as happened in the film,
from what you you would or would not get from a girl in the way of sex (we had
our fair share of “ice queens” and in high school I had more than my fair share
unless the other guys, as usual, were lying like bastards about what they were
“getting”) to the most famous, or infamous bet of all-the night Frankie bet Sam
on how high Jimmy Jake could throw the pizza dough to soften it up before
making the crust.
I should explain that while I would later be particularly partial
to diners in the days in the later part of the 1960s when I was a regular Jack
Kerouac “on the road” hitch-hiker grab rides from lonely for company truck
drivers and I learned almost every diner, good or bad, stop at or avoid, from
Boston to Frisco town back then we hung around Jimmy Jakes out of tradition, at
least three “generations,” meaning four year high school classes hung around
there, probably before World War II as well but we never did find that out and
because Jimmy Jake let us. Was happy, I guess, to see us because despite our
poverty circumstances, girls might come in and buy stuff or rack up coinage on the
jukebox. Located at the corner of Walnut
and Main “up the Downs” which Sam mentioned in his review and I need not speculate
here why that section of town was called that diner was where we spent our drift-less
after school hours. The corner boy progression in town was Harry’s Variety
Store across from Riverdale Elementary which I was not part of since my family
did not move to the town until I was in junior high school then Doc’s Drugstore
with his great jukebox in junior high and then onto Jimmy Jake’s (some guys tried
to use Dell’s Market based on buying ten billion lewd comic books from their out
in the open magazine racks but al they got for their efforts was some move along
by the cops. This progression was recognized by one and all as rights in the
corner boy rites of passage. We knew lots about Jimmy Jake and his operation
and while the cops and other merchants around didn’t care to see us coming Jimmy
Jake, actually an immigrant from Italy whose name was Antonio Lucia maybe had something
of a corner boy, or whatever they called them over there, was happy to see us. Like
I said that we brought in business-the girls with plenty of dough to spent on
food and the jukebox while “disdaining” the riffraff-us.
To make a long story short one Friday night our acknowledged
leader, Frankie Riley, now a big-time lawyer in Boston was looking for dough
and knew Sam had some from caddying at the Point Pond Golf Course the previous
weekend. He was in a betting mood. Here was his bet. High or low, and I forget
and Sam had too what the standard was, about where Jimmy Jake’s pizza dough
would be flung when he was making his pizzas for the night. The thing was, and
this was a hard and fast rule that I do not remember ever being broken, once a
guy called a bet the other guy, or guys had to take the challenge. So the bet
was on. Every time Sam called high Jimmy Jake would go low and visa-versa. That
night Sam lost five bucks and his chance to have a date that weekend. Frankie
got to go on his first date with Johanna Murphy whom he would eventually marry
(and divorce and divorce two others subsequently as well -the corner boys
collectively including me with two before I started just living with women “in
sin” according to my mother had something like maybe a two plus number of
marries and divorces make of that what you will). The “hook’ that caught Sam
that night-the “fix” was in. Frankie whom Jimmy Jake liked the best of all of
us, treated almost like a son, so maybe he had been a corner boy back home spoken
to Jimmy Jake before Sam came in. You can figure out the rest. Corner boy, strictly
corner boy stuff.
I know I have written a lot before I got to what really is
motivating me to write all this down, about Pete Markin mentioned above but here
goes:
A while back we, a bunch of
us who knew Markin who wrote the sketch below back in sunnier days, in hang
around corner boy high school days and afterward too when we young bravos
imbibed in the West Coast dragon chase he led us on in the high hellish
mid-1960s summers of love, got together and put out a little tribute compilation
of his written sketches that we were able to cobble from whatever we
collectively still had around. Those writings were from a time when Markin was
gaining steam as a writer for many of the alternative magazines, journals and
newspapers that were beginning to be the alternative network of media resources
that we were reading once we knew the main media outlets were feeding us
bullshit on a bun, were working hand in glove with big government, big
corporations, big whatever that was putting their thumbs in our eyes.
On big series, a series
that Markin was nominated for, or won, I don’t remember which an award for,
which I will tell you about some other time was from a period toward the end of
his life, a period when he was lucid enough to capture such stories. He had
found himself out in Southern California with a bunch of homeless fellow
Vietnam veterans, no homeless was not the right word,, guys from ‘Nam, his,
their word not mine since I did not serve in the war although did four years in
the Navy earlier on, who having come back to the “real” world just couldn’t, or
wouldn’t adjust and started “creating” their own world, their own brethren
circle, such as it was out along the railroad tracks, rivers and bridges. Bruce
Springsteen would capture the pathos and pain of the situation in his classic
tribute-Brothers Under The Bridge. Markin’s series was
called To The Jungle reflecting both the hard ass jungle of
Vietnam from which they had come to the old-timey hobo railroad track jungle
they found themselves in just like a million other drifters did from building
western railroad times to hard Great Depression times to post-World War II
having a hard time coming back times. Today, except by some off-hand luck you don’t
see hobo camps or hobos, only desperate poor folk who are homeless without wanting
to be.
Yeah, those were the great
million word and ten thousand fact days, the mid to late 1960s, and after he
had gotten back from Vietnam the early 1970s say up to 1974 or so when whatever
Markin wrote seemed like pure gold, seemed like he had the pulse of what was
disturbing our youth dreams, had been able to articulate in words we could
understand the big jail-break out he was one of the first around our town to
anticipate. Had gathered himself to cut the bullshit on a bun world out.
That was before Markin took
the big fall down in Mexico, let his wanting habits, a term that our acknowledged
high school corner boy leader Frankie Riley used incessantly to describe the
poor boy hunger we had for dough, girls, stimulants, life, whatever, get the
best of him. Of course Frankie had “cribbed” the term from some old blues song,
maybe Bessie Smith who had her habits on for some no good man cheating on her
and spending all her hard-earned dough, maybe Howlin’ Wolf wanting every gal he
saw in sight, skinny or big-legged to “do the do” with that Markin also had
turned us onto although I admit in my own case that it took me many years, many
years after Markin was long gone before I appreciated the blues that he kept
trying to cram down our throats as the black-etched version of what hellish
times were going through in the backwaters of Riverdale while the rest of the world was getting ahead.
Heading to leafy suburban golden dreams while we could barely rub two dimes together
and hence made up the different with severe wanting habits-even me.
From what little we could
gather about Markin’s fate from Josh Breslin, a guy from Maine, a corner boy
himself, who I will talk about more in a minute and who saw Markin just before
he hit the lower depths, before he let sweet girl cousin cocaine “run all
around his brain, they say it is going to kill you but they won’t say when” let
the stuff alter his judgment, he went off to Mexico to “cover” the beginnings
of the cartel action there. Somewhere along the line the down there Markin
decided that dealing high heaven dope was the way that he would gather in his
pot of gold, would get the dough he never had as a kid, and get himself well.
“Well” meaning nothing but his nose so full of “candy” all the time that the
real world would no longer intrude on his life. Somehow in all that mixed up
world he had tried his usual end-around, tried to do either an independent deal
outside the cartel, a no-no, or stole some “product” to start his own
operation, a very big no-no. Either scenario was possible when Markin got his
wanting habits on and wound up dead, very mysteriously dead, in a dusty back
street down Sonora way in 1975, 1976 we don’t even have the comfort of knowing
that actual date of his passing.
Those were the bad end
days, the days out in Oakland where they were both staying before Markin headed
south when according to Josh he said “fuck you” to writing for squirrelly newspapers and journals and headed for the
sweet dream hills. But he left plenty of material behind that had been
published or at the apartment that he shared with Josh in Oakland before the nose
candy got in the way. That material wound up in several locations as Josh in
his turn took up the pen, spent his career writing for lots of unread small
journals and newspapers in search of high-impact stories and drifted around the
country before he settled down in Cambridge working as an free-lance editor for
several well-known if also small publishing houses around Boston. So when the
idea was proposed by Jack Callahan to pay a final written tribute to our fallen
comrade we went looking for whatever was left wherever it might be found. You know
from cleaning out the attics, garages, cellars looking for boxes where an old
newspaper article or journal piece might still be found after being forgotten
for the past forty or so years.
The first piece we found,
found by Jack Callahan, one of the guys who hung around with us corner boys
although he had a larger circle since as a handsome guy he had all the social
butterfly girls around him and as a star football player for Riverdale High he
had the girls and all the “jock” hangers-on bumming on his tail, was a story by
Markin for the East Bay Other about the transformation of Phil
Larkin from “foul-mouth” Phil to “far-out’ Phil as a result of the big top
social turmoil events which grabbed many of us who came of political, social,
and cultural age in the roaring 1960s. Markin like I said before had been the
lead guy in sensing the changes coming, had us following in his wake not only
in our heads but his gold rush run in the great western trek to California
where a lot of the trends got their start.
That is where we met the
subject of the second piece, or rather Phil did and we did subsequently too as
we made our various ways west, Josh Breslin, Josh from up in Podunk Maine,
actually Olde Saco fast by the sea, and he became in the end one of the corner
boys, one of the Riverdale corner boys. But before those subsequent meetings he
had first become part of Phil’s “family,” and as that second story documented
also in the East Bay Other described it how Josh, working his new
life under the moniker Prince Love, “married” one of the Phil’s girlfriends,
Butterfly Swirl. The third one in the series dealt with the reality of Phil’s
giving up that girlfriend to Prince Love and the “marriage” and “honeymoon,” 1960s
alternative-style that cemented that relationship.
Yeah, those were wild times
and if a lot of the social conventions accepted today without too much rancor
like people living together as a couple without the benefit of marriage,
same-sex marriage, and maybe even friends with benefits let me clue you in to
where they all started, or if not started got a big time work-out to make things
acceptable. But that was not all he wrote about, just the easy to figure a good
story about 1960s. Markin also wrote about those wanting habits days, our
growing up poor in the 1950s days which while we had no dough, not enough to be
rich was rich in odd-ball stuff we seemingly were forced to do to keep
ourselves just a little left of the law, very little sometimes. Naturally he
wrote about the characters like the one here, Stew-ball Stu, whom I hope
doesn’t read this sketch if he is still alive because he might still take umbrage
and without Markin around he might come after me with a wrench or jackknife,
who we young boys, maybe girls too but then it was boys’ world mostly looked up
to. The actual Stew-ball Stu he sued here was from a story told to him by Josh
Breslin long after he shed his 1960s moniker of Prince Love when Markin was
looking for corner boy stories. But believe me while the names might have been
different old Riverdale had its own full complement of
Stus.
For those not in the know,
for those who didn’t read the first Phil Larkin piece where I mentioned what
corner boy society in old Riverdale was all about Phil was one of a number of
guys, some say wise guys but we will let that pass who hung around successively
Harry’s Variety Store over on Sagamore Street in elementary
school, Doc’s Drugstore complete with soda fountain and more importantly
his bad ass jukebox complete with all the latest rock and roll hits as they
came off the turntable on Newport Avenue in junior high school and of course
Jimmy Jake’s which bonded most of us, of us still standing forever, don’t worry
nobody in the town could figure that designation out either, as their respective
corners as the older guys in the neighborhood in their turn moved up and eventually
out of corner boy life.
More importantly Phil was
one of the guys who latter followed in “pioneer” Markin’s wake when he, Markin,
headed west in 1966 after he had finished up his sophomore year in college and
made a fateful decision to drop out of school in Boston in order to “find himself.”
Fateful in that without a student deferment that “find himself” would
eventually lead him to induction into the U.S. Army at the height of the
Vietnam War, an experience which he never really recovered from for a lot of
reasons that had nothing to do directly with that war but which honed his
“wanting habits” for a different life than he had projected when he naively dropped
out of college to see “what was happening” out on the West Coast.
Phil had met, or I should
say that Josh had met Phil, out on Russian Hill in San Francisco when Josh,
after hitchhiking all the way from Maine in the early summer of 1967, had come
up to the yellow brick road converted school bus (Markin’s term for the travelling
caravan that he and Phil were then part of and which the rest of us, including
even stay-at-home me for a few months ) he and a bunch of others were travelling
up and down the West Coast on and had asked for some dope. Phil was the guy he
had asked, and who had passed him a big old joint, and their eternal friendship
formed from there. (Most of us would meet Josh later that summer as we in our
turns headed out. Sam Lowell, Frankie Riley, Jack Callahan, Jimmy Jenkins and
me all headed out after Markin who had “gone native” pleaded with us to not
miss this big moment that he had been predicting was going to sea-change happen
for a few years.) Although Markin met a tragic end murdered down in Mexico
several years later over a still not well understood broken drug deal with some
small cartel down there as a result of an ill-thought out pursuit of those
wanting habits mentioned earlier he can take full credit for our lifetime
friendship with Josh.
From The Pen Of The Late
Peter Paul Markin
Scene: Brought to mind by the cover artwork that graces the front of
the booklet that accompanied an album I had been reviewing. The artwork
contained, in full James Dean-imitation pout, one good-looking, DA-quaffed,
white muscle-shirted young man, an alienated young man, no question, leaning,
leaning gently, very gently, arms folded, on the hood of his 1950’s classic
automobile, clearly not his father’s car, but also clearly for our purposes let
us call it his “baby.”
And that
car, that extension of his young manhood, his young alienated manhood, is
Friday night, Saturday night, or maybe a weekday night if it is summer, parked,
priority parked, meaning nobody with some Nash Rambler, nobody with some
foreign Volkswagen, no biker even , in short, nobody except somebody who is
tougher, a lot tougher, than our alienated young man better breathe on the spot
while he is within fifty miles of the place, directly in front of the local teenage
(alienated or not) "hot spot." And in 1950s America, a teenage America
with some disposal income (allowance, okay), that hot spot was likely to be, as
here, the all-night Mel’s (or Joe’s, Adventure Car-Hop, whatever) drive-in restaurant
opened to cater to the hot dog, hamburger, French fries, barbecued chicken
cravings of exhausted youth. Youth exhausted after a hard night, well, let’s
just call it a hard night and leave the rest to your knowing imagination, or
their parents’ evil imaginations.
And in
front of the restaurant, in front of that leaned-on “boss” automobile stands one
teenage girl vision. One blondish, pony-tailed, midnight sun-glassed, must be a
California great American West night teeny-bopper girl holding an ice cream
soda after her night’s work. The work that we are leaving to fertile (or evil,
as the case may be) imaginations. Although from the pout on Johnny’s (of course
he has to be a Johnny, with that car) face maybe he “flunked out” but that is a
story for somebody else to tell. Here is mine.
********
Not everybody,
not everybody by a long-shot, who had a “boss” ’57 cherry red Chevy was some
kind of god’s gift to the earth; good-looking, good clothes, dough in his
pocket, money for gas and extras, money for the inevitable end of the night
stop at Jimmy John’s Drive-In restaurant for burgers and fries (and Coke, with
ice, of course) before taking the date home after a hard night of tumbling and
stumbling (mainly stumbling). At least that is what one Joshua Breslin, Josh,
told me, he a freshly minted fifteen- year old roadside philosopher thought as for
the umpteenth time “Stewball” Stu left him by Albemarle Road off
Route One and rode off into the Olde Saco night with his latest “hot” honey,
fifteen year old teen queen Sally Sullivan. Here is the skinny as we used to
say as per one Joshua Breslin:
Yah,
Stewball Stu was nothing but an old rum-dum, a nineteen year old rum-dum,
except he had that “boss” girl-magnet ’57 cherry red and white two-toned Chevy
(painted those colors by Stu himself) and he had his pick of the litter in the
Olde Saco, maybe all of Maine, night. By the way Stu’s official name, was Stuart
Stewart, go figure, but don’t call him Stuart and definitely do not call him
“Stewball” not if you want to live long enough not to have the word teen as part
of your age. The Stewball thing was strictly for local boys, jealous local boys
like Josh, who when around Stu always could detect a whiff of liquor,
usually cheap-jack Southern Comfort, on his breathe, day or night.
Figure
this too. How does a guy who lives out on Tobacco Road in an old run-down trailer,
half-trailer really, from about World War I that looked like something out of
some old-time Great Depression Hoover-ville scene, complete with scrawny dog,
and tires and cannibalized car leavings every which way have girls, and nothing
but good-looking girls from twelve to twenty (nothing older because as Stu
says, anything older was a woman and he wants nothing to do with women, and
their women’s needs, whatever they are). And the rest of us got his leavings,
or like tonight left on the side of the road on Route One. And get this, they,
the girls from twelve to twenty actually walked over to Tobacco Road from nice
across the other side of the tracks homes like on Atlantic Avenue and Fifth
Street, sometimes by themselves and sometime in packs just to smell the grease,
booze, burnt rubber, and assorted other odd-ball smells that come for free at
Stu’s so-called garage/trailer.
Let me
tell you about Stu, Sally, and me tonight and this will definitely clue you in
to the Stu-madness of the be-bop Olde Saco girl night. First of all, as usual,
it is strictly Stu and me starting out. Usually, like today, I hang around his
garage on Saturdays to get away from my own hell-house up the road on Ames
Street, meaning almost as poor as Stu except they are not trailers but, well,
shacks, all that the working poor like my people could afford in the golden age
and I am kind of Stu’s unofficial mascot. Now Stu had been working all day on his
dual-exhaust carburetor or something, so his denims are greasy, his white
tee-shirt (sic) is nothing but wet with perspiration and oil stains, he hasn’t
taken a bath since Tuesday (he told me that himself with some sense of pride)
and he was not planning to do so this night, and of course, drinking all day
from his silver Southern Comfort flask he reeked of alcohol (but don’t tell him
that if you read this and are from Olde Saco because, honestly, I want to live
to have twenty–something as my age). About 7:00 PM he bellows out to me, cigarette
hanging from his mouth, an unfiltered Lucky of course (filtered cigarettes are
for girls in Stu world), let’s go cruising.
Well,
cruising means nothing but taking that be-bop ’57 cherry red and white
two-toned Chevy out on East Grand and look. Look for girls, look for boys from
the hicks with bad-ass cars who want to take a chance on beating Stu at the
“chicken run” down at the flats on the far end of Sagamore Beach, look for
something to take the edge off the hunger to be somebody number one. At least that
last is what I figured after a few of these cruises with Stu. Tonight it looks
like girls from the way he put some of that grease (no not car grease, hair-oil
stuff) on his nappy hair. Yes, I am definitely looking forward to cruising
tonight once I have that sign because, usually whatever girl Stu might not
want, or maybe there are a couple of extras, or something I get first dibs.
Yah, Stu is righteous like that.
So off we
go, stopping at my house first so I can get a little cleaned up and put on a new
shirt and tell my brother to tell our mother that I will be back later, maybe
much later, if she ever gets home herself before I do. The cruising routine in
Olde Saco means up and down Route One (okay, okay Main Street), checking out
the lesser spots (Darby’s Pizza Palace, Hank’s Ice Cream joint, the Colonial
Donut Shoppe where I hang during the week after school and which serves a lot
more stuff than donuts and coffee, sandwiches and stuff, and so on). Nothing
much this Saturday. So we head right away for the mecca, Jimmy John’s. As we
hit Stu’s “saved” parking spot just in front I can see that several stray girls
are eyeing the old car, eyeing it like tonight is the night, tonight is the
night Stu, kind of, sort of, maybe notices them (and I, my heart starting to
race a little in anticipation and glad that I stopped off at my house, got a
clean shirt, and put some deodorant on and guzzled some mouthwash, am feeling
tonight is the night too).
But
tonight is not the night, no way. Not for me, not for those knees-trembling
girls. Why? No sooner did we park than Sally Sullivan came strolling out (okay
I don’t know if she was strolling or doo-wopping but she was swaying in such a
sexy way that I knew she meant business, that she was looking for something in
the Olde Saco night and that she had “found” it) to Stu’s Chevy and with no
ifs, ands, or buts asked, asked Stu straight if he was doing anything this
night. Let me explain before I tell you what Stu’s answer was that this Sally
Sullivan is nothing but a sex kitten, maybe innocent-looking, but definitely
has half the boys, hell maybe all the boys at Olde Saco High, including a lot
of the guys on the football team drooling over her. I know, because I have had
more than one sleepless night over her myself.
See, she
is in my English class and because Mr. Murphy lets us sit where we want I
usually sit with a good view of her. So Stu says, kind of off-handedly, like
having the town teen fox come hinter on him was a daily occurrence, kind of
lewdly, “Well, baby I am if you want to go down Sagamore Rocks right now and
look for dolphins?” See, Sagamore Rocks is nothing but the local lovers’ lane
here and “looking for dolphins” is the way everybody, every teenage everybody in
town says “going all the way,” having sex for the clueless. And Sally, as you
can guess if you have been following my story said, “Yes” just like that. At
that is why I was dumped, unceremoniously dumped, while they roared off into the
night. So like I said not every “boss” car owner is god’s gift to women, not by
a long shot. Or maybe they are.
Of course ultimately the thing that yoked the guys around Jimmy Jake’s
was what to do, or not do, collectively
and individually as the case came up with girls. (And not just in our
generation but at least the couple before ours and a couple after before Tonio
retired and the next owners were not enthralled with corner boys hanging around
their family-oriented place with their “Mom’s night out” Friday night agenda
and called “copper” to clear out the “ruffians” the term they actually used according
to what I heard from Frannie Lacey who stayed in town for the duration since he
had inherited his mother’s house after she passed. In any by then the corner
was giving way to guys (and gals) hanging around malls of the world, the “mall
rats” we have all come to dread in our dotage. Mall rats are not even in the
same world as corner boys but just suburban kids looking for some place to
identify with. These days you see them collected in a space-all looking down at
their smartphones and they might have well been in their living rooms as there.
Too bad.) Like I said I didn’t start hanging the corners until junior high when
my family moved from early growing up North Adamsville about thirty miles away
but one of the big thing driving us hormonally-charged boys to head to Doc’s
Drugstore was to catch what was what after school at first when everybody, when
the girls okay, would drop in on their way home to spent some of their discretionary
dough on listening to something dreamy on Doc’s to die for jukebox (dough which
we corner boys did not have and had to cadge spare change off of some of the
girls). It was at Doc’s I “learned” how to scope a girl to play what I wanted
to hear but that is a story for another time because talking about Doc’s and
the frenzy of trying to score with some girl started in earnest even for “slow”
guys like me. Funny how a year or two before those girls were nothing but
“sticks” and nuisances and all of a sudden there they were kind of “interesting”
In those days as far as I know and even the chronic liars that all
we guys were about “scoring” with a girl-meaning have some kind of sexual
activity with them and that fact was accepted whatever a guy said even when we
knew they guy was lying about scoring some “ice queen” that nobody except maybe
Paul Newman or Bobby Vee could score we never heard (or knew personally) about
any junior high girl who was “putting out” (and if they were “confessing” to
such conduct come Monday morning before school “lav” talk they were lying just
as hard as we were so who the hell knows who was doing, or not doing, what).
That naturally would change considerably by high school especially junior and
senior years when “boss” cars were in the air and Squaw Rock beckoned for adventurous.
Then on any given Friday or Saturday night, or almost any night in the summer,
dated up or not, the talk was almost exclusively except maybe a passing
reference to some sports moment about girls and what they would and would not
do. Do sexually in case you were wondering what “do the do” meant, a common
expression around our way after somebody heard bluesman Howlin’ Wolf utter
those words heard on the local rock station.
I already pointed out the chronic lying about the subject
including by me of course but the real subject was about “getting something,”
getting some sugar we called it without getting caught. That “caught” not
referring to actually doing the act if you were lucky enough to have a halfway
willing girl even if you had to get her drunk to get in the mood. (Yeah, I
know, I know as well as the reader that we were all under age in our state but
if anybody wanted booze “Jimmy the Tramp,” one of the town drunks would gladly
cooperate and get whatever you wanted as long as he got his couple of bottles
of Thunderbird with your order. We learned the “anthem” from him-“what’s the
word-Thunderbird, what’s the price-forty twice” from him. Little did I know
that several years later when I was disturbed by alcohol I would be down in
Jimmy’s ditch expressing the same thing to the high school kids I was buying for).
Caught here meant get some poor girl “in the family way.” Our expression for
the condition was “going to see Aunt Emma” although don’t ask me where it came
from probably from generation to generation by older brothers to younger
brothers and everything got lost in the shuffle about genesis. What would
happen is that we would not see a girl for a while although we knew her family
was still in town, was still in the same house or apartment but the girl was
missing. The excuse when asked was that she had gone to see an aunt for a few
months on some family business. All I know is that you would almost never see
the girl in school again or if you did you would not like now see her with a baby.
One girl did, Candy Lee, came back twice but we all counted her as nothing but
a “slut,” someone to avoid because you know there was nothing but trouble there
as foxy looking as she was in her cashmere sweaters and tight skirts
No guy wanted to have that “going to aunt” hanging over his head
at fifteen or sixteen, probably no girl either but we were just ordinary
teenagers who were sexually curious and didn’t know a damn thing about what the
real consequences of sex were. And how would we then, probably almost as much
now too, since nobody in authority, not parents, priests, principals or
policemen were telling anything that could help. Growing up and hanging with
guys who had a least some Irish in them it was worse since Sacred Heart the
Catholic Church almost all of us attended (except Allan Davis, a Jewish kid who
was a math whizz so we let him hang and Steve Tabor who had a “boss” ’57 Chevy
who was some kind of Protestant who we let hang around for obvious reasons) we
only knew what we got from older siblings or more usually “on the street”
including stuff we made up-most of it wrong and not a small contributing factor
to the “aunt” epidemic. Most of us survived although Peter Paul Markin had a
close call when Jeannie Murphy told him she was pregnant. We all huddled
together to tell him to tell her to take a test to see who the father was. As
it turned out she was lying because she didn’t want Markin to see Laura
Callahan, Jack’s sister whom he was getting big eyes over. Jesus we were on the
cusp of the “Pill” but what they hell did we know about half of this stuff. We
were just hungry.
There were certain traditions associated with corner boy life,
certain rites of passage which each generation of corner boys had to pass
through to keep his place in pecking order (by the way my use of generations is
not say twenty years when people pass from kid-dom to adulthood forming a
generation along the way but more like the six or seven years from late
elementary school to the end of high school, maybe a couple of years beyond).
This for “from hunger” kids who were the main denizens of the corners starting
as far back as local corner boy legend “Red” Riley during World War II who was
admired even by later generations who lived off the crumbs of his “midnight creep”
exploits (and a cautionary tale about a guy who “snitched” to the coppers when
he was caught coming out of a house at midnight not his own who Red
chain-whipped to the emergency room and the guy needed about a hundred stitches
and didn’t look so pretty any that episode-he did learn his lesson and never
said who did that deed to him-smart guy).
Usually, and Frankie Riley, was the king of this kind of action before
he “graduated” to the midnight creep, was the “clip” in elementary school. That
is going up to the central shopping area in town (now the mall-but the mall
rats don’t seem hungry enough for this kind of action) to a jewelry store or
department store (Kendall’s Jewelry was the toughest one to do the clip in so
that was recognized as being superior to just some junk rip-off from
Woolworth’s or some place like that) and grab some rings or other such
items-usually connected with trying to empress so girl or get her a “present”
for some occasion. Kid’s stuff though when you think about it and probably not
worth the risk of getting caught.
The midnight creep was something else though-a real source of
dough if you hit a place right. The legendary Red Riley got a lot of his reputation
as a king hell king of the midnight creep ripping off not the cheapjack places
that most of us out of laziness or lack of class consciousness about where the
good stuff was grabbed but to the places over in the “Mount” where the rich
people, rich to us, lived and had stuff worth stealing. He was also a master at
planning the capers and never got caught, not for that stuff but later for
armed robberies he was not so lucky and did a couple of stretches in the state
pen before getting himself killed down South in a shoot-out with cops while he
was robbing a White Hen store but by then the dope had taken his good judgment
away. Frankie Riley, not as tough as Red, not tough at all after he dunked some
kid’s head who was bothering him down the toilet at school and almost drown the
kid so nobody messed with him after that, was the master planner in our crowd.
Or he was after Markin hatched some plan which he couldn’t possibly carry out
without Frankie running the operation.
This one I was in on so I know it was a beauty. There were a
couple of houses on the edge of our neighborhood which were recently
constructed for some guys who involved in the emerging high technology industry
that was beginning to bloom around Boston then. These guys were working on
R&D for Polaroid if you remember that name. Somehow Markin got close to one
of their daughters, nothing ever came of it because the girl was not interested
in a guy “from hunger” was the way he told it. She told him her father had a
million cameras around, you know those old Polaroid self-developing cameras
every family was crazy for to take instant picture just like no with cellphones
and “selfies.” They were located in the basement where her father would work on
stuff. Markin smelled money, money found on the ground is what his expression
was when there was an easy score. And it was we practically just walked into the
place (now there would be about seven layers of security even in a residential
home) after Frankie figured out how to use a piece of plastic to open the door.
We walked away with about twenty cameras between us. That is what the guy, and
what the newspapers reported. Frankie had a way to sell them and we had serious
dough for weeks. (I won’t say how since I think the statute of limitations has
run out but who knows and besides Frankie is a big deal lawyer now.)
Yeah, corner boy life was something else. Hail corner boys!
Yes, viewing that film looked very, very familiar to these old
eyes. The difference? These guys stuck together well into their twenties. By twenty
most of my guys were in the military, married, in jail, or on the run. The fate
of plenty of real-life corner boys making all that noise. See this film. Enough
said.
In my book, and I am hardly alone on this, Billie Holiday is the torch singer's torch singer. Maybe it is the phrasing on her best songs. That well-placed hush. Maybe it is the unbreakable link between her voice when she is on a roll and the arrangements. Hell, maybe in the end it was the dope but, by Jesus, she could sing a modern ballad of love, lost or both like no other. And if it was the dope, let me say this- a `normal' nice singer could sing for a hundred years and never get it right, the way Billie could get it right when she was at her best. Dope or no dope. Was she always at her best? These recordings done between 1940 and 1942 show the highs. Billie had mastered her trade.
Many of the songs on the current compilation are technically sound, a few not, as is to be expected on such re-mastering. You will like Am I Blue and In My Solitude. Can anyone every do a Cole Porter song better than Billie on Let's Do It. Or the phrasing of Johnny Mercer's Mandy and Me. Damn.
One last word- I have occasionally mentioned my love of Billie Holiday's music to younger acquaintances. Some of their responses reflecting, I think, the influence of the movie version of her life (Lady Sings the Blues with Diana Ross) or some unsympathetic black history 'up lift' type views on her life have written her off as an 'addled' doper. Here is my rejoinder- If when I am blue and need a pick me-up and put on a Billie platter (CD)and feel better then, my friends, I do not give a damn about the dope. Enough said.
Many of the songs on this compilation are technically sound, a few not, as is to be expected on such re-mastering. For examples of what I mean by what I said in the first paragraph of this review check out the playfulness of You Go to My Head and If I Were You. The sentiment of The Very Thought of You and I Got a Date With A Dream. Hey, I don’t even usually like these kinds of songs composed by the masters of Tin Pan Alley but they had me had me humming along. That tells the tale here.
Click on the headline to link to a YouTube film clip of Patsy Cline performing her classic I Fall To Pieces.
CD Review
Pasty Cline-Live At The Cimarron Ballroom (1961), Patsy Cline, MCA Records, 1997
For those of us of a certain age (growing up in the early 1960’s) the timeless voice of Patsy Cline, whether we were aware of it or not, formed the backdrop to many a school dance or other romantic endeavor. I was not a fan of Cline’s, at least not consciously, growing up but have come to appreciate her talent and her amazing voice. In another review in this space I have called her the “country torch singer,” par excellence. And she does not fail here. At least musically. On such classics as I Fall To Pieces (twice, the second being better than the first, ah, “warm up”), Walking After Midnight, Stupid Cupid, Foolin’ Round, and some twangy Cline dialogue between songs she is up to par. However, thematically this CD, while of some value as a historic document (her first concert after a near fatal car accident), is another question. While it was interesting (and a little disconcerting live, circa 1961) to hear her work from the 1950's and early 1960s and covers of others I do not believe that this compilation does justice to her work. Patsy, like many another torch singer like Bessie Smith or Billie Holiday, needs to grow on you. The best way to do that is grab a Greatest Hits (or a Gold Definitive) album and sit back. You won’t want to turn the damn thing off. As for this one, if you have time to listen do so as an appetizer. "Crazy"
Written by willie nelson
(as performed by willie nelson)
Also performed by patsy cline and ray price* Crazy Crazy for feeling so lonely Im crazy Crazy for feeling so blue I knew Youd love me as long as you wanted And then someday Youd leave me for somebody new Worry Why do I let myself worry Wondrin What in the world did I do Crazy For thinking that my love could hold you Im crazy for tryin Crazy for cryin And Im crazy For lovin you (repeat last verse) Patsy Cline, She's Got You Lyrics Artist: Cline Patsy Song: She's Got You “She's Got You” I've got your picture that you gave to me And it's signed "with love," just like it used to be The only thing different, the only thing new I've got your picture, she's got you I've got the records that we used to share And they still sound the same as when you were here The only thing different, the only thing new, I've got the records, she's got you I've got your memory, or has it got me? I really don't know, but I know it won't let me be I've got your class ring; that proved you cared And it still looks the same as when you gave it dear The only thing different, the only thing new I've got these little things, she's got you Patsy Cline, Why Can't He Be You Lyrics
Artist: Cline Patsy
Song: Why Can't He Be You
“Why Can't He Be You” He takes me to the places you and I used to go He tells me over and over that he loves me so He gives me love that I never got from you He loves me too, his love is true Why can't he be you He never fails to call and tell me I'm on his mind And I'm lucky to have such a guy; I hear it all the time And he does all the things that you would never do He loves me, too, his love is true Why can't he be you He's not the one who dominates my mind and soul And I should love him so, 'cause he loves me, I know But his kisses leave me cold He sends me flowers, calls on the hour, just to prove his love And my friends say when he's around, I'm all he speaks of And he does all the things that you would never do He loves me too, his love is true Why can't he be you Patsy Cline, Sweet Dreams Lyrics
Artist: Cline Patsy
Song: Sweet Dreams
“Sweet Dreams” Sweet dreams of you Every night I go through Why can't I forget you and start my life anew Instead of having sweet dreams about you You don't love me, it's plain I should know I'll never wear your ring I should hate you the whole night through Instead of having sweet dreams about you Sweet dreams of you Things I know can't come true Why can't I forget the past, start loving someone new Instead of having sweet dreams about you
