A Walk Down “Dream Street”- For the “girl on the rocks” ……
because we used to share some dreams
When we were students
with a lifetime in front of us (hell, with living forever in front of us) we all
had a fistful of dreams, some outrageously impossible, others just made up of
handfuls of cloud dust. I was thinking recently that my old running mate Bill
Badger, the great runner from our class, and I used to sit on the front steps
at North Adamsville High a lot, mainly in summer, and go back and forth about our respective
dreams for the future. I am interested in what happened to fellow classmates
and their pursuit of their youthful dreams. Did things work out? I hope so. Tell
us your stories. Mine is below - A Walk Down “Dream Street.”:
A few years ago after having gone
through a series of events the details of which need not detain us right now I
was driven back to memories, hard, hard-bitten, hard-aching, hard-longing, mist
of time, dream memories, of North Adamsville schoolboy days and thoughts of my old
high school friend and running mate, Bill Badger, whom I spent many a night on
the front steps at North Adamsville High with talking about our dreams.
Mostly, we spoke of dreams of the
future: small, soft, fluttery, airless, flightless, high school kid-sized,
working class-sized, North Adamsville-sized, non-world–beater-sized, no weight
dreams really. No, that’s not right, they were weighty enough but only until 18
years old, or maybe 21, weighty. A future driven though, and driven hard, by
the need to get out from under, to get away from, to put many miles between us
and some crazy family life (the details of which need not detain us here either,
as I now know, and I have some stories to prove it, that family condition was
epidemic in the old town then, and probably still is).
We also spoke of getting out of
one-horse, teen life-stealing, soul-cramping, dream-stealing, small or large dream
take your pick, even breathe-stealing, North Adamsville. Of getting out into the
far reaches, as far as desire and dough would carry, of the great wild,
wanderlust, cosmic, American day and night road -hitch-hike if you have too,
shoe leather-beating walking if you must but get out. Christ, even to Revere in
a crunch, but mainly putting some miles between us and the old town.
Some of what Bill and I talked about as
well at the time since we were your average teenage boys with teenage “that
minute” dreams too was how we were going to do in the upcoming cross country
and track seasons, girls, the desperate need to get away from the family trap,
girls, no money in pockets for girls, cars, no money for cars, girls. Of course
we dreamed of being world-class runners, as every runner does. Bill went on to
have an outstanding high school career. I, on the other hand, was, giving
myself much the best of it, a below average runner. So much for some dreams.
We occasionally spoke, as well, of
other dreams then. I do not remember a lot of the content of Bill's, mainly
learning a trade, maybe owning his own small business, something to put a
little money in his pockets. The dreams of a lot of the have-nots in the world.
Mine probably ran a parallel course. But along with those practical dreams I
would drive him crazy with the dreams I had of social justice, of making this
wicked old world just a little more peaceful and easy to live in. For working
people, my people, his people, and probably yours too, to get a fair shake in the
here and now. Those dreams, my friends, have, sad to say, not turned out as
expected back then when it looked like we were riding on an upward curve of
history. But enough from me. I want to hear about you. I will finish this sketch
with a line from a Bob Dylan lyric. "I'll let you be in my dream, if I can
be in your dream." Fair enough?
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