***Entering North, 1960-With The Atlantic Junior High School (Yah, Yah I
know Middle School) Class Of 1960 In Mind
A
YouTube film clip of Mark Dinning performing his teen tear-jerker, Teen
Angel to set an "appropriate" mood for this sketch.
This
is a Frankie Riley story, my old junior high school buddy. This is the way
Frankie told me the story one sunny afternoon so once again it is really a
Frankie story that I want to tell you about but around the edges it could be my
story, or your story for that matter:
Funny,
there Frankie was, finally, finally after what seemed like an endless
heat-waved, eternal August dog day’d, book-devoured summer. Standing, nervously
standing, waiting with one foot on the sturdy granite-chiseled steps, ready at
a moment’s notice from any teacher’s beck and call, to climb up to the second
floor main entrance of old North Quincy High An entrance flanked by huge concrete spheres
on each side, which were made to order for him to think that he too had
the weight of the world on his shoulders that sunny day. And those doors, by
the way, as if the spheres were not portentous enough, were also flanked by two
scroll-worked concrete columns, or maybe they were gargoyle-faced, his eyes
were a little bleary just then, that gave the place a more fearsome look than
was really necessary but that day, that day of all days, every little omen had
its evil meaning, evil for Frankie that is.
Here
Frankie was anyway, pensive (giving himself the best of it, okay, nice
wrap-around-your soul word too, okay), head hanging down, deep in thought, deep
in scared, get the nurse fast, if necessary, nausea-provoking thought, standing
around, a little impatiently surly as was his “style” (that “style” he had
picked up a few years previously in elementary school over at the old
Quincy School over on Newbury Street, after seeing James Dean or someone
like that strike the pose, and it stuck). Anyway it was now about 7:00 AM,
maybe a little after, and like I said his eyes had been playing tricks on him
all morning and he couldn’t seem to focus, as he waited for the first school
bell to sound on that first Wednesday after Labor Day in the year of our lord,
1960.
Should
have been no big deal, right? We had all done it many times before by then so
it should have been easy. Year after year, old August dog days turned into
shorter, cooler September come hither young wanna-be learner days. Nothing to
get nervous about, nothing to it. (Did I say that already?) Especially the
first day, a half day, a “gimme” day, really, one of the few out of one hundred
and eighty, count ‘em, and mainly used for filling out the one thousand and one
pieces of paper about who you were, where you lived, and who you lived with.
Yeah, and who to call in case you took some nasty fall in gym trying to do a
double twist-something on the gym mat, and trying to impress in the process
some girl over on the other side of the gym with your prowess, hoping she is
not looking just then if you falter. Or a wrestled double-hammer lock grip on
some poor, equally benighted fellow student that went awry like actually had
happened to Frankie the previous year in eighth grade. Hey, they were still
talking about that one in the Atlantic Junior High locker rooms at the end of
the year, I heard.
More
ominously, they wanted that information so that if you crossed-up one, or more,
of your mean-spirited, ill-disposed, never-could-have-been-young-and-troubled,
ancient, Plato or Socrates ancient from the look of some of them, teachers and
your parents (meaning embarrassed, steaming, vengeful Ma really, not
hard-working-could-not-take-the-time-off Pa in our neighborhoods) needed to be
called in to confer about “your problem,” your problem that you would grow out
of with a few days of after school “help.” Please.
That
“gimme” day (let’s just call it that okay) would furthermore be spent reading
off, battered, monotone homeroom teacher-reading off, the one thousand and one
rules; no lateness to school under penalty of being placed in the stocks,
Pilgrim-style; no illness absences short of the plague, if you had it, not a
family member, and then only if you had a (presumably sanitized) doctor’s note;
no cutting classes to explore the great American day streets at some nearby
corner variety store, or mercy, the Downs, one-horse Norfolk Downs also under
severe penalty; no (unauthorized) talking in class (but you could bet your last
dollar they would mark it down if you did not “authorize talk,” Jesus);
no giving guff (yeah no guff, right) to your teachers, fellow students, staff,
the resident mouse or your kid brother, if you had a kid brother; and, no
writing on walls, in books, and only on occasion on an (authorized) writing
pad. Continuing rule-ward; get this one, neither Frankie nor I could believe
this one over at Atlantic, no cutting in line for the school lunch. The school
lunch, Christ, as poor as our families were we at least had the dignity not to
pine for, much less cut in line for, those beauties: the American chop suey
done several different ways to cover the week, including a stint as baloney and
cheese sandwiches, I swear. Moving along; no off-hand rough-necking (or just plain,
ordinary necking, either); no excessive use of the “lav” (you know what that
is, enough said), and certainly no smoking, drinking or using any other illegal
(for kids) substances.
Oh,
yeah, and don’t forget to follow, unquestioningly, those mean-spirited,
ill-disposed teachers that I spoke of before, if there is a fire emergency. And
here’s a better one, in case of an off-hand atomic bomb attack go, quickly and
quietly, to the nearest fall-out shelter down in the bowels of the old school.
That’s what we practiced over at Atlantic. Frankie hoped that they did not try
that old gag at North and have all of us practice getting under our desks in
such an emergency like in elementary school. Christ, Frankie thought (and me
too when we talked about it later) he would rather take his chances, above
desk, thank you. And… need I go on, you can listen to the rest when you get to
homeroom I am just giving you the highlights, the year after year, memory
highlights.
And
if that isn’t enough, the reading of the rules and the gathering of more
intelligence about you than the FBI or the CIA would need we then proceeded to
the ritualistic passing out of the books, large and small (placing book covers
on each, naturally, name, year, subject and book number safety placed in
insert). All of them covered against the elements, your own sloth, and the
battlefield school lunch room. That humongous science book that has every known
idea from the ancient four furies of the air to nuclear fission, that math book
that has some Pythagorean properties of its own, the social studies books to
chart out human progress (and back-sliding) from stone age-cave times on up,
and the precious, precious English book (Frankie hoped that he would get
to do Shakespeare that year, he had heard that we did, we both agreed
that guy knew how to write a good story, same with that Salinger book that
Frankie told me he had read during the summer). Still easy stuff though, for
the first day.
Yeah,
but this will put a different spin on it for you, well, a little different spin
anyway. That day Frankie felt he was starting in the “bigs”, at least the bigs
of the handful-countable big events of his short, sweet life. That day he was
starting his freshman year at hallowed old North Quincy High and he was as nervous
as a kitten. He laughed at me when I said I had not been afraid of that event yelling at me “Don’t tell
me you weren’t just a little, little, tiny bit scared of the idea of going from
the cocoon-like warmth of junior high over to the high school.” He then taunted
me- “Come on now, I’m going to call you out on it. Particularly since I am one
of those Atlantic kids who, after all, had been here before, unlike you who
came out of the Germantown "projects" on the other side of town, and
moved back to North Quincy after the "long march" move to the new
Atlantic Junior High in the hard winter of 1959 so I didn’t know the ropes here
at all.” I did not take his bait, thought he was goofing.
So
there they were, especially those sweet girl Atlantics, including a certain she
that Frankie was severely "crushed up" on, in their cashmere sweaters
and jumpers or whatever you call them, were nevertheless standing on
those same steps, as Frankie and they exchanged nods of recognition, since they
were on those steps just as early as Frankie was, fretting their own
frets, fighting their own inner demons, and just hoping and praying or whatever
kids do when they are “on the ropes” to survive the day, or just to not get
rolled over on day one.
And
see, here is what you also don’t know that was causing Frankie the frets, know
yet anyway. Frankie had caught what he called Frankie’s disease. You have never
heard of it, probably, and don’t bother to go look it up in some medical
dictionary at the Thomas Crane Public Library, or some other library, it is not
there. What it amounts to is the old time high school, any high school, version
of the anxiety-driven cold sweats. Now I know some of you knew Frankie, and
some of you didn’t, but he was the guy who I told you a story about before, the
story about his big, hot, “dog day” August mission to get picnic fixings,
including special stuff, like Kennedy’s potato salad, for his grandmother.
That’s the Frankie I am talking about, my best junior high friend, Frankie.
Part
of that previous story, for those who do not know it, mentioned what Frankie
was thinking when he got near battle-worn North Quincy High on his journey to
the Downs back in August. I’m repeating; repeating at least the important parts
here, for those who are clueless:
“Frankie
(and I) had, just a couple of months before, graduated from Atlantic Junior
High School and so along with the sweat on his brow from the heat a little bit
of anxiety was starting to form in Frankie’s head about being a “little fish in
a big pond” freshman come September as he passed by. Especially, a
proto-beatnik “little fish.” See, he had cultivated a certain, well, let’s call
it “style” over there at Atlantic. That "style" involved a total
disdain for everything, everything except trying to impress girls with his long
chino-panted, plaid flannel-shirted, thick book-carrying knowledge of every
arcane fact known to humankind. Like that really was the way to impress teenage
girls. In any case he was worried, worried sick at times, that in such a big
school his “style” needed upgrading…”
And
that is why, when the deal went down and Frankie knew he was going to the
“bigs” he spent that summer reading, big time booked-devoured reading. Hey,
I'll say he did, The Communist Manifesto, that one just because old
Willie Westhaver over at Atlantic called him a Bolshevik when he answered one
of his foolish math questions in a surly manner. Frankie said he read it just
because he wanted to see what old Willie was talking about. In any case,
Frankie said he was not no commie, although he did not know what the big deal
was about, he was not turning anybody in about it in any case, and the stuff
was hard reading anyway. Frankie had also read Democracy in America (by
a French guy), The Age of Jackson (by a Harvard professor who knew Jack
Kennedy and who was crazy for old-time guys like Jackson), and Catcher In The
Rye by that Salinger guy I mentioned before (Holden Caulfield was Frankie,
Frankie to a tee).
Okay,
okay I won’t keep going on but that was just the reading on the hot days when
Frankie did not want to go out, he said after the summer- “test me on what I
read, I am ready.” Here's why. He intended, and he swore he intended to even on
that first nothing day (what did I call it before-"gimme", yeah) of
that new school year in that new school in that new decade to beat the “old
Frankie,” old book-toting, girl-chasing Frankie, who knew every arcane fact
that mankind had produced and had told it to every girl who would listen for
two minutes (maybe less) in that eternal struggle, the boy meets girl struggle,
at his own game. Frankie, my buddy of buddies, mad monk, prince among men
(well, boys, anyhow) who navigated me through the tough, murderous parts of
junior high, mercifully concluded, finished and done with, praise be, and
didn’t think twice about it was going to outdo himself. He, you see, despite,
everything I said a minute ago had been “in,” at Atlantic; that arcane
knowledge stuff worked with the “ins” who counted, worked, at least a little,
and I should know since I got dragged in his wake. That day he was eager to try
out his new “style.”
See,
that was why on that Wednesday after Labor Day in the year of our lord, 1960,
that 7:00 AM, or a little after, Wednesday after Labor Day, Frankie had had
Frankie’s disease. He had harped on it so much before the opening of school
that he had woken up about 5:00 AM that morning, maybe earlier, but he said it
was still dark, with the cold sweats. He had tossed and turned for a while
about what his “style”, what his place in the sun was going to be, and he just
had to get up. He said he would tell you about the opening day getting up
ritual stuff later, some other time, but right then he was worried, worried as
hell, about his “style”, or should he said was upon reflection, teenage angst
reflection, his lack of style over at Atlantic. That will tell you a lot about
why he woke up that morning before the birds.
Who
was he kidding. You know what that cold night sweats, that all-night toss and
turn teen angst, boy version, was nothing but thinking about her. That certain
"she" that Frankie had kind of sneaked around mentioning as he had
been talking, talking his head off just to keep the jitters down. While on
those pre-school steps he had just seen her, seen her with the other Atlantic
girls on the other side of the steps, and so I am going to have to say a little
something about it. See, the previous school year, late, toward the end Frankie
had started talking to this Lydia Adams, yes, that Lydia from the Adams family
who had run this jagged old granite quarries town here in North Quincy for eons
and who employed my father and a million other fathers around here and then
just headed south, or someplace for the cheaper labor I heard. This was one of
the granddaughters or some such relation I never did get it all down. And that
part was not all that important anyway because what mattered, what mattered to
Frankie, was that faint scent, that just barely perceivable scent, some nectar
scent, that came from Lydia when he sat next to her in art class and they
talked, talked their heads off.
But
Frankie never did anything about it, not then anyway although he said he had
this feeling, maybe just a feeling because he wanted things to be that way but
a feeling anyway, that she had expected me to ask her out. Asking out for
junior high school students then, and for freshmen in high school too because
we didn’t have licenses to drive cars, being the obligatory "first
date" at Jimmy Jack's Shack (no, not the one of Wollaston Boulevard,
that's for the tourists and old people, the one on Hancock up toward the Square
is the one I am talking about). Frankie said he was just too shy and
uncertain to do it.
Why?
Well you might as well know right now Frankie came from the “wrong side of the tracks”
in this old town, over by the old abandoned Old Colony tracks and she, well
like I said came from a branch of the Adams family that lived over on Elm in
one of those Victorian houses that the swells are crazy for now, and I guess
were back then too. That is when Frankie figured that if he studied up on a
bunch of stuff, stuff that he liked to study anyway, then come freshman year he
just might be able to get up the nerve to ask her to go over to Jimmy Jack's
for something to eat and to listen to the jukebox after school some day like
every other Tom, Dick and Harry in this burg did.
....Suddenly,
a bell rang, a real bell, students, like lemmings to the sea, were on the move,
especially those Atlantics that Frankie had nodded to before as he took those
steps, two at a time. Too late then to worry about style, or anything else.
They (we) were off to the wars; Frankie will make his place in the sun as he
goes along, on the fly. But guess who kind of brushed against Frankie as he
rushed up the stairs and gave him one of her biggest faintly-scented smiles as
they raced up those funky granite steps. A place in the sun indeed.
********
....and
a trip down memory lane.
MARK
DINNING lyrics - Teen Angel
(Jean Surrey & Red Surrey)
(Jean Surrey & Red Surrey)
Teen
angel, teen angel, teen angel, ooh, ooh
That
fateful night the car was stalled
upon
the railroad track
I
pulled you out and we were safe
but
you went running back
Teen
angel, can you hear me
Teen
angel, can you see me
Are
you somewhere up above
And
I am still your own true love
What
was it you were looking for
that
took your life that night
They
said they found my high school ring
clutched
in your fingers tight
Teen
angel, can you hear me
Teen
angel, can you see me
Are
you somewhere up above
And
I am still your own true love
Just
sweet sixteen, and now you're gone
They've
taken you away.
I'll
never kiss your lips again
They
buried you today
Teen
angel, can you hear me
Teen
angel, can you see me
Are
you somewhere up above
And
I am still your own true love
Teen
angel, teen angel, answer me, please
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