In Honor Of International Workers’ Day- May Day 2015
-Ancient dreams, dreamed-The Risen People?-Frank Jackman’s War-Take Four
From The American Left History Blog Archives –May
Day 1971
Endless, dusty, truck heavy, asphalt steaming
hitchhike roads travelled, Route 6, 66, maybe 666 and perdition for all I know,
every back road, every Connecticut highway avoiding back road from
Massachusetts south to the capital for one last winner-take-all, no prisoners
taken show-down to end all show-downs. And maybe, just maybe, finally some
peace and a new world a-borning, a world we had been talking about for at least
a decade (clueless, as all youth nations are clueless, that that road was
well-travelled, very well- travelled, before us). No Jack Kerouac dharma bum
easy road (although there were dharma bums, or at least faux dharma bums,
aplenty on those 1971 roads south, and west too) let- her-rip cosmic brakeman
Neal Cassady at the wheel flying through some Iowa/Kansas wheat field night
fantasy this trip.
No this trip was not about securing some cultural
enclave in post-war America (post-World War II so as not to confuse the reader)
in break-out factory town Lowell or cold water tenement Greenwich Village/Soho
New Jack City or Shangri-La West out in the Bay area, east or west, but about
mucking up the works, the whole freaking
governmental/societal/economic/cultural/personal/godhead world (that last one,
the godhead one, not thrown in just for show, no way) and maybe, just maybe
sneaking away with the prize. But a total absolute, absolutist, big karma sky
fight out, no question. And we, I, am ready. On that dusty road ready.
More. See all roads head south as we, my girlfriend of
the day, maybe more, maybe more than a day, Joyell, but along this time more
for ease of travelling for those blessed truck driver eye rides, than lust or
dream wish and my sainted wise-guy amigo (and shades of Gregory Corso, sainted,
okay), Matty, who had more than a passing love or dream wish in her and if you
had seen her you would not have wondered why. Not have wondered why if your
“type” was Botticelli painted and thoughts of butterfly swirls just then or were
all-type sleepy-eyed benny-addled teamster half-visioned out of some forlorn
rear view mirror.
Yah, head south, in ones, twos, and threes (no more,
too menacing even for hefty ex-crack back truckers to stop for) travelling down
to D.C. for what many of us figure will be the last, finally, push back against
the war, the Vietnam War, for those who have forgotten, or stopped watching
television and the news, but THEY, and you knew (know) who they were (are), had
their antennae out too, they KNEW we were coming, even high-ball fixed (or
whiskey neat she had the face for them) looking out from lonely balconies
Martha Mitchell knew that much. They were, especially in mad max robot-cop
Connecticut, out to pick off the stray or seven who got into their mitts as a contribution
to law and order, law and order one Richard Milhous Nixon-style (and in front
of him, leading some off-key, off-human key chorus some banshee guy from
Maryland, another watch out hitchhike trail spot, although not as bad as Ct,
nothing except Arizona is). And thus those dusty, steamy, truck heavy (remind
me to tell you about hitchhiking stuff, and the good guy truckers you wanted,
desperately wanted, to ride with in those days, if I ever get a chance
sometime).
The idea behind this hitchhiked road, or maybe,
better, the why. Simple, too simple when you, I, thought about it later in
lonely celled night but those were hard trying times, desperate times really,
and just free, free from another set of steel-barred rooms this jailbird was
ready to bring down heaven, hell, hell if it came down to it to stop that
furious war (Vietnam, for the later reader) and start creating something
recognizable for humans to live in. So youth nation, then somewhat long in the
tooth, and long on bad karma-driven bloody defeats too, decided to risk all
with the throw of the dice and bring a massive presence to D.C. on May Day
1971.
And not just any massed presence like the then
familiar seasonal peace crawl that nobody paid attention too anymore except the
organizers, although the May Day action was wrapped around that year’s spring
peace crawl, (wrapped up, cozily wrapped up, in their utopian reformist dream
that more and more passive masses, more and more suburban housewives from New
Jersey, okay, okay not just Jersey, more and more high school freshman, more
and more barbers, more and more truck driver stop waitresses, for that matter,
would bring the b-o-u-r-g-e-o-i-s-i-e (just in case there are sensitive souls
in the room) to their knees. No, we were going to stop the government, flat.
Big scheme, big scheme no question and if anybody, any “real” youth nation
refugee, excepting, of course, always infernal always, those cozy peace crawl
organizers, tried to interject that perhaps there were wiser courses nobody mentioned
them out loud in my presence and I was at every meeting, high or low. Moreover
I had my ears closed, flapped shut closed, to any lesser argument. I, rightly
or wrongly, silly me thought “cop.”
So onward anti-war soldiers from late night too little
sleep Sunday night before Monday May Day dawn in some vagrant student apartment
around DuPont Circle (I think) but it may have been further up off 14th Street,
Christ after eight million marches for seven million causes who can remember
that much. No question though on the student ghetto apartment locale; bed
helter-skelter on the floor, telephone wire spool for a table, orange crates
for book shelves, unmistakably, and the clincher, seventeen posters, mainly
Che, Mao, Ho, Malcolm etc., the first name only necessary for identification
pantheon just then, a smattering of Lenin and Trotsky but they were old guys
from old revolutions and so, well, discounted to early rise (or early stay up
cigarette chain-smoking and coffee slurping to keep the juices flowing). Out
into the streets, out into the small collectives coming out of other vagrant
apartments streets (filled with other posters of Huey Newton , George Jackson,
Frantz Fanon, etc. from the two names needed pantheon) joining up to make a
cohorted mass (nice way to put it, right?). And then dawn darkness surrounded,
coffee spilled out, cigarette bogarted, AND out of nowhere, or everywhere,
bang, bang, bang of governmental steel, of baton, of chemical dust, of whatever
latest technology they had come up with they came at us (pre-tested in Vietnam,
naturally, as I found out later). Jesus, bedlam, mad house, insane asylum,
beat, beat like gongs, defeated.
Through bloodless bloodied streets (this, after all,
was not Chicago, hog butcher to the world), may day tear down the government
days, tears, tear-gas exploding, people running this way and that coming out of
a half-induced daze, a crazed half-induced daze that mere good- will, mere
righteousness would right the wrongs of this wicked old world. One arrested, two,
three, many, endless thousands as if there was an endless capacity to arrest,
and be arrested, arrest the world, and put it all in one great big Robert F.
Kennedy stadium home to autumn gladiators on Sunday and sacrificial lambs this
spring maypole may day basket druid day.
And, as I was being led away by one of D.C.’s finest,
I turned around and saw that some early Sunday morning voice, some “cop” voice
who advised caution and went on and on about getting some workers out to join
us before we perished in an isolated blast of arrests and bad hubris also being
led away all trussed up, metal hand-cuffs seemingly entwined around her whole
slight body. She said she would stick with us even though she disagreed with
the strategy that day and I had scoffed, less than twenty-four hours before,
that she made it sound like she had to protect her erring children from
themselves. And she, maybe, the only hero of the day. Righteous anonymous
sister, forgive me. (Not so anonymous actually since I saw her many times later
in Boston, almost would have traded in lust for her but I was still painted
Botticelli-bewitched and so I, we, let the moment passed, and worked on about
six million marches for about five millions causes with her but that was later.
I saw no more of her in D.C. that week.)
Stop. Brain start. Out of the bloodless fury, out of
the miscalculated night a strange bird, no peace dove, these were not such
times even with all our unforced errors, and no flame-flecked phoenix raising
but a bird, maybe the owl of Minerva came a better sense that this new world
a-bornin’ would take some doing, some serious doing. More serious that some
wispy-bearded, pony-tailed beat, beat down, beat around, beat up young stalwart
road tramp acting in god’s place could even dream of. But that was later. Just
then, just that screwed-up martyr moment, I was longing for the hot, dusty,
truck driver stop meat loaf special, dishwater coffee on the side, road back
home even ready to chance Connecticut highway dragnets to get there.
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After Frank Jackman was
discharged from the Army in 1971 he, for a short time, had a certain notoriety
in the local anti-war movement around Cambridge, In those heady day before May
Day he had his pick of anti-war women who were interested in hanging around
with an ex-soldier resister (well not pick but there was some serious interest)
this is the story of the most serious relationship prior to May Day. This
Joyell he spoke of below and he had hitchhiked to Washington, D.C that last
weekend in April. She to stay only for the Saturday mass march since she was
opposed to the actions to “shut down the government” planned for May Day Monday
morning.
As this story unfolds,
Elizabeth Cotten’ s Freight Train, in an upbeat Peter, Paul and Mary-style
version complete with Bleecker Street reference, is being covered just then
near the well firewood- stocked, well-stoked fireplace of the great room in a
hard winter, February version, snow-covered rural New Hampshire old time
religious order assembly hall by some upstart urban folkie a long way from his
home and a long way from that 1960s folk revival minute that then had had even
jaded aficionados from the generation of ’68 clamoring for more.
Meanwhile, the front hall
entrance adjacent to that great room where that old-time folkie and his
old-time tune are being heard by a small early-bird arrival gathering crowd who
never tire of the song, and who this night certainly do not tire of being close
by the huge well stocked, well-stoked fireplace where the old brother, hell,
let’s give him a name, Eric, Eric from Vermont, okay, is holding forth is
starting to fill with more arrivals to be checked in and button-holed. The
place, for the curious: the Shaker Farms Peace Pavilion (formerly just plain
vanilla Shaker Farms Assembly Hall but the “trust fund babies” who bought and
donated the site, ah, insisted in their, of course, anonymous way on the added
signature) the scene of umpteen peace conferences, anti-war parlays,
alternative world vision seminars, non-violent role-playing skits, and personal
witness actions worked out. A handy hospice for worn-out ideas, ditto
frustrations, and an off-hand small victory or two.
That very last part, that
desperate victory last part, is what keeps the place afloat, afloat in this
oddball of a hellish anti-war year 1971 when even hardened and steeled old-time
peace activists against the Vietnam War are starting to believe they will be
entitled to Social Security for their efforts before this bloody war is over.
Hence the urgency behind this particular great room fireplace warm, complete
with booked-in urban folkie singer, umpteenth anti-war conference. But onward
brothers and sisters and let us listen in to the following conversation
overheard in that now crowded front hall:
“Hi, Joyell, glad you could
make it to the conference. Are you by yourself or did you bring Steve with
you?” asked Jim Sweeney, one of the big honchos, one of the big organizational
honchos and that is what matters these dog days when all hope appears to have
been abandoned, these now fading days of the antiwar movement trying yet again
to conference jump start the opposition to Nixon’s bloody escalations and
stealthy tricky maneuvers.
“Good to see you too, Jim,”
answered Joyell, who said it in such a singsong way that she and Jim Sweeney,
obviously, had been in some mystic time, maybe some summer of love time before
everything and everybody needed twelve coats of armor, emotional armor, just to
move from point A to point B, more than fellows at one of those umpteen peace
things. Joyell knew, knew from some serious reflection last summer, that she
had put on a few more armor coats herself and, hell, she was just a
self-confessed rank and filer. Their “thing” had just faded though for lack of
energy, lack of high “ism” politics on Joyell’s part unlike frenetic Jim, and
for the cold, hard fact that Jim at the time wanted to devote himself totally
to the “movement” and could not “commit” to a personal relationship. The
ensuing followed-
“Who is that guy over in the corner, that
green corner coach, the guy with the kind of wispy just starting to fill out
brown beard, and those fierce piercing goy blue eyes, that I just passed? I’ve
not seen him around before,” Joyell asked herself and then Marge Goodwin, expecting
Marge the crackerjack organizer of everything from antiwar marches to save the,
and you can fill in the blank, to know all the players. Moreover Marge and
Joyell got along well enough for Joyell to ask such a question, “girl talk,”
they called it between themselves although to the “men” this was a book sealed
with seven seals since the “correct” thing was to put such girlish things back
in prehistoric times, four or five years ago okay. Joyell also sensed that
since Marge’s “thing” with Jim hadn’t worked out they had something in common,
although nothing was ever said. Nor would it be.
“Oh, that’s Frank Jackman,
the anti-war GI who just got out of the stockade over at Fort Shaw last week
and he is ready to do some work with us,” volunteered Marge. Later that evening
Joyell would hear from a reliable source that Marge had gotten, or had tried to
get, very familiar with the ex-army soldier resister. Marge had a thing for
“heroic” guys. Heroic guys being guys like Jim, Joan Baez’s hubby, David Harris,
who had refused draft induction, the Berrigan Brothers who were getting ready
to do time for draft board record destruction (although she, Marge, couldn’t
get that damn Catholic trick part that drove their actions) and now this Frank
Jackman who had done a year, a tough soldier non-soldier year, some of it in
solidarity, in the stockade for refusing go to Vietnam (and refusing to wear
the military uniform at one point). Joyell also heard from another source that
evening that it was no dice between Marge and Frank.
This source thought it was
that Marge, always getting what Marge wanted when it came to “movement men,”
figured this guy would just cave in and take the ride. Not this guy, no way,
not after taking on the “big boys” over at Fort Shaw. No dice, huh. That’s a
point in his favor. But that was later fuel.
“Oh, that’s why his beard is
so wispy and he is wearing those silly high top polished black boots and that
size too big Army jacket with those bell-bottomed jeans. He certainly has the
idea of what it takes to fit in here,” Joyell figured out, figured out loud.
Marge just nodded, nodded kind of dismissively that she was right. And then
left to do some organization business setting up the evening’s work.
And then suddenly, she,
Joyell Davin (suitably Americanized, naturally, a couple of generations back),
freshly-damaged in love’s unequal battles but apparently not ready to throw in
the towel, got very quiet, very quiet like she always did when some guy caught
her eye, well, more than her eye tonight, now that Steve was so much train
smoke out in the cornfields somewhere. Maybe it was the New York City
armor-coated brashness, hell Manhattan grow-up hard and necessary brashness
required in a too many people universe, and learned from her very opinionated
father, that her quietness tried to rein in at times like this so guys, guys
like this Frank, wouldn’t be thrown off. But whatever it was that drove her
quietness she was taking her peeks, her quiet half- peeks really, at this guy.
With Steve, and a few other guys, it was mostly full steam ahead and let the
devil take the hinter- post. This time her clock said take it easy, jesus, take
it easy.
And as she found herself
catching herself taking more and more of those telltale peeks she noticed,
noticed almost by instinct, almost by some mystical sense that he was
“checking” her out, although their dueling eyes had not met. Then, after Jim
had finished giving the opening address about what the conferees were trying to
do, this Frank Jackman stood up quickly without introduction and started
talking, in a firm voice, about the need to up the ante, to create havoc in the
streets, and in the army camps. And do it now, and with some sense of urgency.
But he said it all in such way that everybody in the room, all forty or fifty
of them, knew, or should have known, that this was not some ragtag
wispy–bearded fly-by-night “days of rage” kid spirit, freshly bell-bottom pants
minted, but some kind of revolutionary, some kind of radical anyway, who had
thought about things a lot and wasn’t just a flame-thrower like she had seen
too many of lately, including Steve, before he went to find himself.
When Frank was done he
looked, half-looked really, quickly in her direction like he was seeking her,
and just her, approval. And like he needed to know and know right this minute
that she approved. She blushed, and hoped it did not show. And hoped that she
had read his look in her direction correctly. But before that blush could
subside she blushed again when out of nowhere this Frank gave her a another
look, a serious checking out look if she knew her “movement” men, not a leer
like some drunken barroom guy, or “come on, honey,” like a schoolboy but a
let’s talk high “ism” talk later, and see what happens later, later. Maybe this
umpteenth conference would work out after all.
So our Joyell was not
surprised, not surprised at all, when during the break, the blessed break after
two non-stop hours of waiting, Francis Alexander Jackman (that’s what he was
called from when he was a kid and it kind of stuck but he preferred simply
Frank) came up behind, tapped her gently on the shoulder to get her attention,
introduced himself without fanfare or with any heroic poses, and thanked her
for her work on his behalf.
“What do you mean, Frank?”
she asked, bewildered by the question. “Oh, when your Peace Action committee
came up to Fort Shaw and demonstrated for my freedom,” he replied in kind of a
whisper voice, very different from his public voice, a voice that had known
some tough times recently and maybe long ago too, but that soft whisper was
what she needed, needed to hear from a righteous man, just now. The shrill of
Steve’s voice, and a couple of others in her string of forgotten luck, still
echoed in her brain.
“That was you? I didn’t make
the connection. I didn’t know that was you, sorry, that was about a year ago
and I have been going non-stop with this antiwar march and that women’s lib
things. Were you in the stockade all that time?” she continued.
“Yah,” just a yah, not forlorn
or anything like that but just a simple statement of fact, of the fact that he
had needed to do what he did and that was that, next question, came that soft
reply like this Frank and she were on some same wave-length. She was confused,
confused more than a little that he had that strong effect on her after about
five minutes of just general conversation.
Just then Marge,
super-organizer but, as Joyell had already gathered intelligence on by then,
not above having the last say in her little romances with the newest heroes of
the movement, or trying to, called to Frank that Stanley Bloom, the big
national anti-war organizer, wanted his input into something. But before he
left soft -whispering still, calm still, unlike when he talked, talked peace
action talk, he mentioned kind of kid-like, bashful kid-like, and maybe they
could meet later. Joyell could barely contain herself, and although she usually
acted bashfully at these times, kind of a studied bashfulness starting out,
even with Steve and some of the movement guys, she just blurted out, “We’d
better.” He replied, a little stronger of voice than that previous whisper, “I
guess that is a command, right?” And they both laughed, laughed an adventure
ahead laugh.
Later came, evening session
complete, as they were sitting across from each other in the great room, the
great fireplace room where Eric was going through his second rendition of
Freight Train to get the room revved up for his big stuff. Frank came over and
asked, back to whisper asked, if Joyell would like to go outside for a breath
of fresh winter air. Or maybe somewhere else, another room inside perhaps if
she didn’t like the cold or snow. No second request was necessary, and no
coyness on her part either with this guy, as she quickly went to the coat rack
and put on her coat, scarf, and boots. And so it went.
They talked, or rather she
talked a blue streak, a soft-spoken blue streak like Frank’s manner was
contagious, and maybe it was. Then he would ask a question, and ask it in such
a way that he really wanted to know, know her for her answer and not just to
ask, polite ask. As they walked, and walked, and as the snow got deeper as they
moved away from the pavilion she kind of fell, kind of helpless on purpose
fell. On purpose fell expecting that he might kiss her. But all he did was pick
her up, gently but firmly, held her in his arms just a fraction of a second,
but a fraction of a second enough to let her know, and let her feel, that they
had not seen the last of each other. And just for that cold, snow-driven
February night, as war raged on in some distance land, and as she gathered in
her tangled emotions after many romantic stumbles and man disappointments, that
thought was enough.