*****The Son Of Dharma-With Jack Kerouac’s On The Road In Mind
From The Pen Of Sam Lowell
Jack Callahan thought he was going crazy when he thought about the matter after he had awoken from his fitful dream. Thought he was crazy for “channeling” Jack Kerouac, or rather more specifically channeling Jack’s definitive book On The Road, definite in giving him and a goodly portion of his generation that last push to go, well, go search a new world, or at least get the dust of your old town growing up off of your shoes, that had much to do with his wanderings. Got him going in search of what his late corner boy, “the Scribe,” Peter Paul Markin called the search for the Great Blue-Pink American West Night (Markin always capitalized that concept so since I too was influenced by the mad man’s dreams I will do so here). Any way you cut it seeking that new world that gave Jack his fitful dream. That “driving him crazy” stemmed from the fact that those wanderings, that search had begun, and finished shortly thereafter, about fifty years before when he left the road after a few months for the hand of Chrissie McNamara and a settled life. Decided that like many others who went that same route he was not build for the long haul road after all.
But maybe it is best to go back to the beginning, not the fifty years beginning, Jesus, who could remember, maybe want to remember incidents that far back, but to the night several weeks before when Jack, Frankie Riley, who had been our acknowledged corner boy leader out in front of Jack Slack’s bowling alleys from about senior year in high school in 1966 and a couple of years after when for a whole assortment of reasons, including the wanderings, the crowd went its separate ways, Jimmy Jenkins, Allan Johnson, Bart Webber, Josh Breslin, Rich Rizzo, Sam Eaton and me got together for one of our periodic “remember back in the day” get-togethers over at “Jack’s” in Cambridge a few block down Massachusetts Avenue from where Jimmy lives. We have probably done this a dozen time over the past decade or so, most recently as most of us have more time to spent at a hard night’s drinking (drinking high-shelf liquors as we always laugh about since in the old days we collectively could not have afforded one high-shelf drink and were reduced to drinking rotgut wines and seemingly just mashed whiskeys, and draino Southern Comfort, and that draino designation no lie, especially the first time before you acquired the taste for it).
The night I am talking about though as the liquor began to take effect someone, Bart I think, mentioned that he had read in the Globe that up in Lowell they were exhibiting the teletype roll of paper that Jack Kerouac had typed the most definitive draft of his classic youth nation travel book, On The Road in honor of the fiftieth anniversary of its publication in 1957. That information stopped everybody in the group’s tracks for a moment. Partly because everybody at the table, except Rich Rizzo, had taken some version of Kerouac’s book to heart as did thousands, maybe hundreds of thousands of certified members of the generation of ’68 who went wandering in that good 1960s night. But most of all because etched in everybody’s memory were thoughts of the mad monk monster bastard saint who turned us all on to the book, and to the wanderings, the late Peter Paul Markin.
Yeah, we still moan for that sainted bastard all these years later whenever something from our youths come up. It might be an anniversary, it might be all too often the passing of some iconic figure from those times, or it might be passing some place that was associated with our crowd, and with Markin. See Markin was something like a “prophet” to us, not the old time biblical long-beard and ranting guys although maybe he did think he was in that line of work, but as the herald of what he called “a fresh breeze coming across the land” early in the 1960s. Something of a nomadic “hippie” slightly before his time (including wearing his hair-pre moppet Beatles too long for working class North Adamsville tastes, especially his mother’s, who insisted on boys’ regulars and so another round was fought out to something like a stand-still then in the Markin household saga). The time of Markin’s “prophesies,” the hard-bitten Friday or Saturday night times when nothing to do and nothing to do it with he would hold forth, was however a time when we could have given a rat’s ass about some new wave forming in Markin’s mind (and that “rat’s ass” was the term of art we used on such occasions).
We would change our collective tunes later in the decade but then, and on Markin’s more sober days he would be clamoring over the same things, all we cared about was girls (or rather “getting into their pants”), getting dough for dates and walking around money (and planning small larcenies to obtain the filthy lucre), and getting a “boss” car, like a ’57 Chevy or at least a friend that had one in order to “do the do” with said girls and spend some dough at places like drive-in theaters and drive-in restaurants (mandatory if you wanted to get past square one with girls, the girls we knew, or were attracted to, in those days).
Markin was whistling in the dark for a long time, past high school and maybe a couple of years after. He wore us down though pushing us to go up to Harvard Square in Cambridge to see guys with long hair and faded clothes and girls with long hair which looked like they had used an iron to iron it out sing, read poetry, and just hang-out. Hang out waiting for that same “fresh breeze” that Markin spent many a girl-less, dough-less, car-less Friday or Saturday night serenading us heathens about. I don’t know how many times he dragged me, and usually Bart Webber, in his trail on the late night subway to hear some latest thing in the early 1960s folk minute which I could barely stand then, and which I still grind my teeth over when I hear some associates going on and on about guys like Bob Dylan, Tom Rush and Dave Von Ronk and gals like Joan Baez, the one I heard later started the whole iron your long hair craze among seemingly rationale girls. Of course I did tolerate the music better once a couple of Cambridge girls asked me if I liked folk music one time in a coffeehouse and I said of course I did and took Markin aside to give me some names to throw at them. One girl, Lorna, I actually dated off and on for several months.
But enough of me and my youthful antics, and enough too of Markin and his wiggy ideas because this screed is about Jack Kerouac, about the effect of his major book, and why Jack Callahan of all people who among those of us corner boys from Jack Slack’s who followed Markin on the roads west left it the earliest. Left to go back to Chrissie, and eventually a car dealership, Toyota, that had him Mr. Toyota around Eastern Massachusetts (and of course Chrissie as Mrs. Toyota).
In a lot of ways Markin was only the messenger, the prodder, because when he eventually convinced us all to read the damn book at different points when we were all, all in our own ways getting wrapped up in the 1960s counter-cultural movement (and some of us the alternative political part too) we were in thrall to what adventures Sal Paradise and Dean Moriarty were up to. That is why I think Jack had his dreams after the all-night discussions we had. Of course Markin came in for his fair share of comment, good and bad. But what we talked about mostly was how improbable on the face of it a poor working-class kid from the textile mill town of Lowell, Massachusetts, from a staunch Roman Catholic French-Canadian heritage of those who came south to “see if the streets of America really were paved with gold” would seem an unlikely person to be involved in a movement that in many ways was the opposite of what his generation, the parents of our generation of ’68 to put the matter in perspective, born in the 1920s, coming of age in the Great Depression and slogging through World War II was searching for in the post-World War II “golden age of America.” Add in that he also was a “jock” (no slur intended as we spent more than our fair share of time talking about sports on those girl-less, dough-less, car-less weekend nights, including Markin who had this complicated way that he figured out the top ten college football teams since they didn’t a play-off system to figure it out. Of course he was like the rest of us a Notre Dame “subway” fan), a guy who played hooky to go read books and who hung out with a bunch of corner boys just like us would be-bop part of his own generation and influence our generation enough to get some of us on the roads too. Go figure.
So we, even Markin when he was in high flower, did not “invent” the era whole, especially in the cultural, personal ethos part, the part about skipping for a while anyway the nine to five work routine, the white house and picket fence family routine, the hold your breath nose to the grindstone routine and discovering the lure of the road and of discovering ourselves, and of the limits of our capacity to wonder. No question that elements of the generation before us, Jack Kerouac’s, the sullen West Coast hot-rodders, the perfect wave surfers, the teen-alienated rebel James Dean and wild one Marlon Brando we saw on Saturday afternoon matinee Strand Theater movie screens and above all his “beats” helped push the can down the road, especially the “beats” who along with Jack wrote to the high heavens about what they did, how they did it and what the hell it was they were running from. Yeah, gave us a road map to seek that “newer world” Markin got some of us wrapped up in later in the decade and the early part of the next.
Now the truth of the matter is that most generation of ‘68ers, us, only caught the tail-end of the “beat” scene, the end where mainstream culture and commerce made it into just another “bummer” like they have done with any movement that threatened to get out of hand. So most of us who were affected by the be-bop sound and feel of the “beats” got what we knew from reading about them. And above all, above even Allen Ginsberg’s seminal poem, Howl which was a clarion call for rebellion, was Jack Kerouac who thrilled even those who did not go out in the search the great blue-pink American West night.
Here the odd thing, Kerouac except for that short burst in the late 1940s and a couple of vagrant road trips in the 1950s before fame struck him down was almost the antithesis of what we of the generation of ’68 were striving to accomplish. As is fairly well known, or was by those who lived through the 1960s, he would eventually disown his “step-children.” Be that as it may his role, earned or not, wanted or not, as media-anointed “king of the beats” was decisive.
But
enough of the quasi-literary treatment that I have drifted into when I really
wanted to tell you about what Jack Callahan told me about his dream. He dreamed
that he, after about sixty-five kinds of hell with his mother who wanted him to
stay home and start that printing business that he had dreamed of since about
third grade when he read about how his hero Benjamin Frankin had started in the
business, get married to Betsy Binstock(not Chrissie whom she hated, called an
Irish whore one time and Jack had all he could to not slap her down for such a
remark, mother or no mother), buy a white picket fence house (a step up from
the triple decker tenement where he grew up) have children, really
grandchildren and have a happy if stilted life. But his mother advise fell off
him like a dripping rain, hell, after-all he was caught in that 1960s moment
when everything kind of got off-center and so he under the constant prodding of
Markin decided to hit the road. Of course the Kerouac part came in from reading
the book after about seven million drum-fire assaults by Markin pressing him to
read the thing.
So
there he was by himself. Markin and I were already in San Francisco so that was
the story he gave his mother for going and also did not tell her that he was
going to hitchhike to save money and hell just to do it. It sounded easy
in the book. So he went south little to hit Route 6 (a more easterly part of
that road in upstate New York which Sal unsuccessfully started his trip on.
There he met a young guy, kind of short, black hair, built like a football
player who called himself Ti Jean, claimed he was French- Canadian and hailed
from Nashua up in New Hampshire but had been living in Barnstable for the
summer and was now heading west to see what that summer of love was all about.
Jack
was ecstatic to have somebody to kind of show him the ropes, what to do and
don’t do on the road to keep moving along. So they travelled together for a
while, a long while first hitting New York City where Ti Jean knew a bunch of
older guys, gypsy poets, sullen hipsters, con men, drifters and grifters, guys
who looked like they had just come out some “beat” movie. Guys who knew what
was what about Times Square, about dope, about saying adieu to the American
dream of their parents to be free to do as they pleased. Good guys though who
taught him a few things about the road since they said they had been on that
road since the 1940s.
Ti
Jean whose did not look that old said he was there with them, had blown out of
Brockton after graduating high school where he had been an outstanding sprinter
who could have had a scholarship if his grades had been better. Had gone to
prep school in Providence to up his marks, had then been given a track
scholarship to Brown, kind of blew that off when Providence seemed too
provincial to him, had fled to New York one fine day where he sailed out for a while
in the merchant marines to do his bit for the war effort. Hanging around New
York in between sailings he met guys who were serious about reading, serious
about talking about what they read, and serious about not being caught in
anything but what pleased them for the moment. Some of this was self-taught,
some picked up from the hipsters and hustlers.
After
the war was over, still off-center about what to do about this writing bug that
kept gnawing at him despite everybody, his minute wife, his love mother, his
carping father telling him to get a profession writing wasn’t where any dough
was, any dough for him he met this guy, a hard knocks guys who was something
like a plebeian philosopher king, Ned Connelly, who was crazy to fix up cars
and drive them, drive them anyway. Which was great since Ti Jean didn’t have a
license, didn’t know step one about how to shift gears and hated driving
although he loved riding shot-gun getting all blasted on the dope in the glove
compartment and the be-bop jazz on the radio. So they tagged along together for
a couple of years, zigged and zagged across the continent, hell, went to Mexico
too to get that primo dope that he/they craved, got drunk as skunks more times
than you could shake a stick, got laid more times than you would think by girls
who you would not suspect were horny but were, worked a few short jobs picking
produce in the California fields, stole when there was no work, pimped a couple
of girls for a while to get a stake and had a hell of time while the “squares”
were doing whatever squares do. And then he wrote some book about it, a book
that was never published because there were too many squares who could not
relate to what he and Ned were about. He was hoping that the kids he saw on the
road, kids like Jack would keep the thing moving along as he left Jack at the
entrance to the Golden Gate Bridge on their last ride together.
Then
Jack woke up, woke up to the fact that he had stayed on the road too short a
time now looking back on it. That guy Ti Jean had it right though, live fast,
drink hard and let the rest of it take care of itself. Thanks
Markin.