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From The Pen Of Frank Jackman
This is the way my old corner boy,
Fritz Taylor, from down in “the projects” told me the story one night years
later when we were sitting on the grey granite steps of our high school, Miller
High, in Seaside Heights, that’s in New Hampshire. Those projects by the way,
all white projects unlike the ones you
hear about lately which are mostly populated by minorities, had originally been
build right after World War II to help stem the heavy demand for housing from
returning servicemen with young families and not enough dough to finance a
house. The original idea as well was that the housing was temporary and had
been built with a certain careless abandon by some low-bidder contractors.
Fritz’s and my family had been among those families in the 1950s who did not
get to participate in the “golden age” and so we were long time tenants all
through our school years until we graduated from Miller High. Between the
isolated location of the projects and the high number of kids the place had it
had its own elementary school, Snug Harbor (sounds nice right, however, that
school was also expected to be temporary and built as such by those same
low-bidder contractors), where we both had gone through all six grades together
(we started in the time before kindergarten became a step in one’s education).
I am telling you about this because the story happened down there long before
we got to high school.
So there we were sitting there on the
steps, no dough in our pockets, our main guy for a ride out of town, Benny,
also a corner boy, on a family vacation up in Maine, no girls in hand, or
prospects either since any girls we were interested in had no interest us
either because we had not car or because we were from the projects, come to
think of it forget that last part it was because we were car-less and that
world was filled with guys with cars, “boss cars,” swooping down on the
interesting girls, talking slowly. Talking kind of softly for us although
loudly or softly no one would have been around to heard us that warm summer
night with about six weeks to go before school started again and we could go back
and start our junior year, kind of dreamy too really about the first times we
had been smitten by a girl, not necessarily a forever smitten thing (forever
then being maybe a month or six weeks, no more except for some oddball couples
who found love and stayed together for the next fifty years if you can believe
that in this day in age) but with a bug that disturbed our sleep.
Yeah, that is exactly the way to put
it, when some frail disturbed our sleep, the first of many sleepless nights on
that subject. (That “frail” a localism
for girl, heavily influenced by our corner boy with the car Benny watching too
many 1930s and 1940s George Raft or James Cagney gangster and Humphrey Bogart hard-boiled
private detective movies.) So we were sitting there thinking about how we were
now chasing other dreams, well, maybe not other dreams but older versions,
sweet sixteen versions of that same dream.
Of course at sixteen it was all about girls but as it turned out that
subject had its own pre-history way back when. Just ask Fritz Taylor if you see
him.
Fritz Taylor, if he thought about it at
all and at times like that dream vision night at sixteen on the steps in front
of the high school he might have, probably would have said that he had his
history hat on again like when he was a kid, loving history or even the thought
of history since Miss Winot blew him away with talk of ancient Greeks and Romans.
Blew him away so that when he got in trouble with that teacher for saying
something fresh, and it really was, a swear word expression, “what the fuck,”
that he heard all the time around his house which he thought everybody said
when they were angry, assigned him a paper to write of five hundred words and
he wrote an essay about Greek democracy which she actually read to the class
she was so impressed. Miss Winot, blew him away more when she freaked him out
with talk of Egypt and Pharaoh times with the Pyramids and the slaves and all
time and he begged his older brother to drive him all the way down to the art
museum in Boston to look at old Pharaoh stuff some guys from Harvard had
unearthed. But all that is just stuff to let you know what kind of guy Fritz was
in elementary school before he wised up, or kind of wised up, in high school. Funny
one time when I wanted to take the bus down to Boston when I got the Pharaoh
bug in high school he dismissed me out of hand. Done that, he said. So that
night he had his history hat on so I knew I was in for a story, a bloody silly
story if I knew Fritz but we had nothing better to do so I let him go on. Let
him go on that sixteen years old summer night when out of the blue, the memory
time blue, he thought about more modern history, thought about her, thought
about fair Rosimund.
No, before you get all set to turn to
some other thing, some desperate alternate other thing, to do rather than read
Fritz’s poignant little story, this is not some American Revolution founding
fathers (or mothers, because old-time Abigail Adams may have been hovering in
some background granite-chiseled slab grave in a very old-time Quincy cemetery
while the events to be related occurred since Fritz was crazy about her too once
he figured out she was the real power behind John and John Quincy) or some bold
Massachusetts abolitionist regiment, the fighting 54th, out of the
American Civil War 150th anniversary memory history like Fritz used to like to
twist the tail around when you knew him, or his like. This is about “first love”
so rest easy.
Fritz, that early summer’s night, was
simply trying to put his thoughts together and figured that he would write
something, write something for those who could stand it, those fellow members
of our class who could stand to know that story. Although, at many levels that
was a very different experience from that of the average, average Miller High class
member the story had a universal quality that he thought might amuse them,
amuse them that is until the name, the thought of the name, the mist coming
from out of his mouth at the forming of the name, holy of holies, Rosimund,
stopped him dead in his tracks and forced him to tell me that story and to
write that different story later.
Still, once the initial trauma wore
off, Fritz thought what better way to celebrate that milestone on the rocky
road to surviving childhood than to take a trip down memory lane, that
Rosimund-strewn memory lane. Those days although they were filled with memorable
incidents, good and bad, paled beside this Rosimund-related story that cut
deep, deep into his brown-haired mind, and as it turned out one that he have
not forgotten after all. So rather than produce some hokey last dance, last
elementary school sweaty-palmed dance failure tale, some Billie Bradley-led
corner boy down in the back of Snug Harbor doo wop be-bop into the night luring
stick and shape girls like lemmings from the sea on hearing those doo wop
harmonies, those harmonies meant for them, the sticks and shapes that is, or
some wannabe gangster retread tale, or even some Captain Midnight how he saved
the world from the Cold War Russkies with his last minute-saving invention
Fritz preferred to relate a home truth, a hard home truth to be sure, but the truth
Here is his say:
At some point in elementary school a
boy is inevitably supposed to learn, maybe required to, depending on the whims
of your school district’s supervisory staff and maybe also what your parents
expected of such schools, to do two intertwined socially-oriented tasks - the
basics of some kind of dancing and to be paired off with, dare I say it, a girl
in that activity. After all that is what it is there for isn’t it. At least it
was that way a few years back, and if things have changed, changed dramatically
in that regard, you can fill in your own blanks experience. But here that is
where fair sweet Rosimund comes in, the paired-off part.
I can already hear your gasps, dear
reader, as I present this scenario. You are ready to flee, boy or girl flee, to
some safe attic hideaway, to reach for some dusty ancient comfort teddy bear,
or for the venturesome, some old sepia brownie camera picture album safely
hidden in those environs, but flee, no question, at the suggestion of those
painful first times when sweaty-handed, profusely sweaty-handed, boy met
too-tall girl on the dance floor (age too-tall girls hormone shooting up first,
later things settled down, a little). Now for those who are hopped up, or even
mildly interested, in such ancient rituals you may be thinking, oh well, this
won’t be so bad after all since I am talking about the mid-1950s and they had
Dick Clark’s American Bandstand on the television to protect us from
having to dance close, what with those funny self-expression dance moves like
the Stroll and the Hully-Gully that you see on re-runs. And then go on except,
maybe, the last dance, the last close dance that spelled success or failure in
the special he or she night so let me tell you how really bad we had it in the
plaid 1960s. Wrong.
Oh, of course, we were all after school
black and white television-addled and addicted making sure that we got home by
three in the afternoon to catch the latest episode of the American Bandstand
saga about who would, or wouldn’t, dance with that cute girl in the corner (or
that leering Amazon in the front). That part was true, true enough. But here we
are not talking fun dancing, close or far away, but learning dancing,
school-time dancing, come on get with it. What we are talking about in my case
is that the dancing part turned out to be the basics of country bumpkin
square-dancing (go figure, for a city boy, right?). Not only did this clumsy,
yes, sweaty-palmed, star-crossed ten-year-old boy have to do the basic “swing
your partner” and some off-hand “doze-zee dozes(sic)” but I also had to do it
while I was paired, for this occasion, with the girl that I had a “crush” on, a
serious crush on, and that is where Rosimund really enters the story.
Rosimund see, moreover, was not from
“the projects” but from one of the new single-family homes, ranch-style homes
that the up and coming middle-class were moving into up the road. In case you
didn’t know, or have forgotten, I grew up on the “wrong side of the tracks”
down at the Seaside Heights Housing Authority apartments. The rough side of
town, okay. You knew that the minute I mentioned the name, that SHHA name, and
rough is what you thought, and that is okay. Now. But although I had started
getting a handle on the stick "projects" girls I was totally unsure
how to deal with girls from the “world.” And Rosimund very definitely was from
the world. I will not describe her here; although I could do so even today, but
let us leave it at her name. Rosimund. Enchanting name, right? Thoughts of
white-plumed knighted medieval jousts against some black-hooded, armored thug
knight for the fair maiden’s hand, or for her favors (whatever they were then,
mainly left unexplained, although we all know what they are now, and are glad
of it)
Nothing special about the story so far,
though. Even I am getting a little sleepy over it. Just your average
one-of-the-stages-of-the-eternal-coming-of-age-story. I wish. Well, the long
and short of it was that the reason we were practicing this square-dancing was
to demonstrate our prowess before our parents in the school gym. Nothing
unusual there either. After all there is no sense in doing this type of
school-time activity unless one can impress one's parents. I forget all the details
of the setup of the space for demonstration day and things like that but it was
a big deal. Parents, refreshments, various local dignitaries, half the school
administrators from downtown whom I will go to my grave believing could have
cared less if it was square-dancing or basket-weaving because they would have
ooh-ed and ah-ed us whatever it was. But that is so much background filler.
Here is the real deal. To honor the occasion, as this was my big moment to
impress Rosimund, I had, earlier in the day, cut up my dungarees to give myself
an authentic square-dancer look, some now farmer brown look but back then maybe
not so bad.
I thought I looked pretty good. And
Rosimund, looking nice in some blue taffeta dress with a dark red shawl thing
draped and pinned across her shoulders (although don’t quote me on that dress
thing, what did a ten-year old boy, sister-less, know of such girlish fashion
things. I was just trying to keep my hands in my pockets to wipe my sweaty
hands for twirling time, for Rosimund twirling time) actually beamed at me, and
said I looked like a gentleman farmer. Be still my heart. Like I said I though
I looked pretty good, and if Rosimund thought so well then, well indeed. And
things were going nicely. That is until my mother, sitting in a front row
audience seat as was her wont, saw what I had done to the pants. In a second
she got up from her seat, marched over to me, and started yelling about my
disrespect for my father's and her efforts to clothe me and about the fact that
since I only had a couple of pairs of pants how could I do such a thing. In
short, airing the family troubles in public for all to hear. That went on for
what seemed like an eternity.
Thereafter I was unceremoniously taken
home by said irate mother and placed on restriction for a week. Needless to say
my father also heard about it when he got home from that hard day’s work that
he was too infrequently able to get to keep the wolves from the door, and I
heard about it for weeks afterward. Needless to say I also blew my 'chances'
with dear, sweet Rosimund.
Now is this a tale of the hard lessons
of the nature of class society that I am always more than willing to put in a
word about? Just like you might have remembered about me back in the day.
Surely not. Is this a sad tale of young love thwarted by the vagaries of fate?
A little. Is this a tale about respect for the little we had in my family?
Perhaps. Was my mother, despite her rage, right? Well, yes. Did I learn
something about being poor in the world? Damn right. That is the point. …But,
oh, Rosimund.
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