The Roots Is The Toots: The Music That Got The Generation Of
’68 Through The 1950s Red Scare Cold War Night- The Tattered, Battered
Generation of '68-With The Rolling Stones’ Gimme
Shelter Redux In Mind
Introduction By Allan Jackson
[Not everything that came out of the
1960s was pure gold not by a long shot. Nor did everybody was got washed, clean
or otherwise, get religion on the new world a-borning. Couldn’t go the distance
and as we can see now as the baby-boomer population settles into twilight we
can see that we are very far from having changed enough of the world for enough
people to be the least bit complacent about the matter. A lot of it got ground
down in person stuff, in not being able to stand alone a bit-to seek shelter from
the storm-the clarion call from the Rolling Stones once the forces that were unleashed
by the 1960s began to get frayed around the edges and the massive counter-attack
on the cultural and about a million other fronts sent us reeling. It is a long,
long way although maybe a very short time from Street Fighting Man
to Gimme Shelter. Leave it to the Stones
to bookend the damn thing for us. Allan Jackson]
James Jordan usually a stable, steady
guy who rolled with the punches, maybe rolled with then too much, was in a fix.
James wasn’t sure what to make of the feelings long suppressed about his youth,
about the place where he grew up, about his turbulent high school days in the
early 1960s, about his problems with girls, about his problems with his mother,
about his problems with “Uncle” all of which in the end drove him into what
amounted to permanent exile, exile on Main Street he liked to say cribbing from
a Stones’ album title. Those mumbo-jumbo broth of feelings that had suddenly
simmered and then exploded into a great desire to work through after almost
thirty years of statutory neglect what had happened back then.
A couple of years before James started
simmering (his term) he had been searching for a couple of old neighbors from
the old working class neighborhood where he grew up, Jack Jenkins and Johnny
Silver, a couple of guys who he had hung around with, a couple of what they
called then, maybe still do, corner boys, corner boys around Be-Bop Benny’s
Diner over on Main Street in his growing up town of Clintondale where the caught hell, caught mischief, and
occasionally a stray girl not afraid of corner boys or looking down her nose at
them. Both these guys had done their time in ‘Nam when they place was the
hellhole for their generation, for him too, although he dodged the draft, did
almost two years in Allentown down in Pennsylvania for his troubles when
“Uncle” called him on the matter and that was that. That act alone caused big
riffs between the three. and not just the three but a couple of other of the
corner boys who were not called up, Rats McGee and Clipper Harris, and
especially the acknowledged corner boy leader, the late Red Riley who had some
bronze star and other ribbons to show for his valor. (Red later got caught up
in some bad stuff, drugs James had heard which kind of figured, and was cut
down in some unexplained shoot-out with the cops at a White Hen store down in
some hick town in South Carolina where he allegedly was in the process of
committing armed robbery on the place.)
The last James had heard, this about
twenty years before, Jack and Johnny were looking for him to tell him that they
finally figured out what he was trying to do by resisting the draft, just
trying to keep himself in one piece like they were but just in a different way.
But in that twenty years back time James had been in a deep freeze about
anything that smacked of the old town, of the old places, of the old days. He
had even denied to both his first and second wives, both since divorced, that
he was from Clintondale claiming that he had been born in more upscale
Hullsville near the water. They had both been both big on “upscale” having come
from some new money and thus he did himself no harm by mentioning Hullsville,
until they found out otherwise when his first wife, Anna, found out he was
fooling around with the woman who would be his second wife, Joyce, when she
started looking to find out who he really was. Joyce thereafter did the same
thing when he took up with his present companion (no more marriages), Laura. So
he was in deep denial, or something like that.
Maybe if James had tried to locate Jack
and Johnny back those twenty years he would have needed the services of some
private detective agency, or something like that but the new technology, the
new ways of gathering information in the age of the Internet had saved him much
time and money. In the process he had, unintentionally, found some other people
from his high school class who helped him in his search. (He had done a
straightforward Google search for the Clintondale Class of 1962 and had come up
first with a commercial high school site which led him to a site which had been
established by a committee formed for the 50th anniversary reunion
of that class).
To show how much he had mellowed since
those trying youthful days, or maybe showing the extent of his simmering
(remember his term) in the process of looking for his former brethren he had
gotten caught up in what he, innocently, thought was a simple effort to help out
one particular classmate on the committee, a former class officer, Melinda
Loring. He agreed to answer some questions for a project that the class, the
Class of 1962, was doing in preparation for the next year’s 50th
class reunion. Apparently, from Melinda’s frenzied requests every time he
answered one question thinking that was the end of it, this was to be an
endless series of questions that seemed to him to start to make the run of the
mill entries in that space by others in the class about kids, grandkids,
vacations, travel and such who had seen fit to comment but who were not under
Melinda’s sway seem like child’s play by comparison.
James finally having figured out
Melinda’s mad plan told her (and obviously everybody else on the class website
once she placed all his previous answers on-line for all the candid world to
see) that he was placing the answer to the question below that she had asked
him to write about on the site on his own unmediated by her, as he thought it
might be of interest to those who, long of tooth now, had come from that time
in question. Here is what one James Jordan formerly in permanent exile from his
past on Main Street had to say to the following question:
Question: Do you consider yourself a
member of the Generation of ‘68?
"In that time, twas bliss to be
alive, to be young was very heaven"- a line from a poem by William
Wordsworth in praise of the early stages of the French Revolution.
“I mentioned in the Tell My Story section of my profile page
that while we were all members of the Class of 1962 some of us were also
members of the Generation of ’68. I guess to those of us who considered
themselves part of that experience no further explanation is necessary.
However, if you are in doubt then let me give my take on what such membership
would have entailed.
This question had actually prompted by
an observation made by my old friend, and our classmate, the legendary track
and cross-country runner Bill Collier. Part of my motivation for joining in
this work on this site (answering the ten thousand Melinda questions) was to
find him (and Jack Jenkins and Johnny Silver my old estranged corner boys who I
am still looking for, Melinda is helping and maybe you can too). I have found
him and we have started to keep in touch again via the amazing technology that
has produced this class site for the computer-able. At one of the bull sessions
that we have had I asked him whether he had gone to any class reunions. I had
not done so and therefore I was interested in his take on the subject.
Bill said that the only one that he had
gone to was the 5th anniversary reunion in 1969. Of course that year
is the high water mark for the Generation of ’68. A key observation that Bill
related, as least for my purpose here, was that when he went to that reunion
and people came up to him to introduce themselves he had trouble identifying
people, especially the guys, because of all the beards and long hair that were
supreme tribal symbols at the time. So that is one, perhaps superficial,
criterion for membership (for guys anyway).
Frankly, dear classmates, among the
reasons that I turned my back on the old hometown right after high school was
that it seemed like a ‘square’ (remember that tribal term from our youth
meaning not hip) working class town that did not fit in with my evolving
political and cultural, or rather counter-cultural, interests. Thus, Bill’s
comments rather startled me. My assumption would have been that the ‘squares’
would have gotten a job after high school (or gone to college and then gotten a
job), gotten married, had kids, bought a house and followed that trail,
wherever it led. This new knowledge may tell me something different.
Is it possible that there were many
other kindred spirits from our class who broke from that pattern, as least for
a while? Who not only grew their hair long (male or female) or grew beards
(male) but maybe dressed in the symbolic Army/ Navy store fashions of the day
(male or female) or burned their bras (female)? Or did some dope (Yes, I know
we are all taking the Bill Clinton defense on this one. Now) and made all the
rock concerts? Or hitchhiked across the country? Or opposed the damn Vietnam
War and got tear gassed for their efforts, supported the black liberation
struggle and got tear gassed for their efforts, supported an end to the draft,
ROTC on campus, etc. and got......well, you know the rest of the line. Or lived
in a commune or any number of other things of like kind that were the signposts
of the generation of ’68? In short, tried to 'storm heaven'. We lost that fight
but these days I sense the storm clouds are gathering again for a new
generation that has been beaten down by the hardships of living in this society
without succor. Your stories, please (and that includes those ‘squares’ who do
not now seem quite that way anymore).
James never did find out what happened
to Jack and Johnny despite the best efforts of his and his classmates,
especially Melinda who sensed how important it was to him (although she had
told James that back in the day she would not go to Be-Bop Benny’s Diner
because she was afraid and looked down her nose at corner boys). Seems the
trail got cold when either one of them, or both, they were definitely
travelling together, had serious problems adjusting to the real world after
‘Nam although the symptoms didn’t get bad until about a decade later around the
time that James had heard they were looking for him. They, or one of them since
the files were guarded by privacy laws, had been suffering, suffering badly
from what a Veterans Administration counsellor at the hospital in Boston (the
Jamaica Plain one not the one in West Roxbury) called Post Traumatic Stress
Disorder (PTSD) and had taken off to the west, maybe California where a lot of
guys with troubles tried to get a fresh start but the trail got cold, went
dead, on Laramie Street in Denver. James told the whole class on the site when
things seemed hopeless about finding their whereabouts that he hoped Jack and
Johnny had found what they were looking
for, looking for like the rest of that tattered, battered generation of’68 who
tried to turn the world upside down and got knocked down for their
troubles.
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