In Honor Of The Fallen Vietnam
War Brothers Of North Adamsville Whose Names Are Now Eternally Etched In Stone
At Town Hall And Down In Washington
By Frank Jackman
You know I don’t think I
really have given the reader the hard edge of how the deaths of our corner boy
comrades Rick Rizzo and Donald White who laid down their heads in muddy fields of
faraway Vietnam back in the 1960s and are now forever remembered at Town Hall and
in black granite in Washington affected all of us when we heard the news. By then,
by 1966 and 1967 when they passed, the corner boy crowd from the North Adamsville
High Class of 1964, their and our class mostly had passed through seven winds,
were scattered to and fro although mostly still Acre connected by parents and
siblings. Some still in town like Bart Webber or nearby colleges like Pete
Markin, forever known as the Scribe. So the hard solidarity we had accumulated,
most of us, the core, from those junior high school days at Atlantic (now
renamed North Adamsville Middle School since a couple of schools were combined)
at start-out Doc’s Drugstore corner holding the bricks up and racketed up in
front of Tonio’s Pizza Parlor in high school might had dissipated some but it
was hard to shake off that a couple of our number had passed so young in the
days when we all, including Rick and Donald, thought we would live forever. Writing
over fifty years later has some of that same dissipated quality, that time has
done its job to make us forget enough to keep back most of the tears.
But that is just plain wrong,
wrong enough to need some additional thought and words to speak of the deaths
of guys who we thought then, 1966, 1967 then were doing the right thing even if
later we mostly changed our minds when we in our turns had to do military
service. Maybe not so much on Rich who really was a mad man to beat commie ass,
to wipe away whole countries if necessary so we in the Acre could have some,
well, whatever we had, peace I guess. Donald (nobody ever called him anything
but Donald from as far back as I remember) who really did get a snow job from
the Army recruiter who promised the world and brought only the death that
Donald’s mother never got over, drew her to an early grave. There I said it,
said stuff that should have been mentioned in the previous tributes, the stuff
about broken-hearted mothers, and broken-hearted corner boys. Maybe for the
first time I will admit, despite my long years as an anti-war activist and peace
crusader, that I privately went to Adamsville Beach one night after hearing the
news and wept copious tears over poor Donald’s demise. Hopefully that will give
the reader a much better sense of how we took our fallen comrades’ deaths.
When I wrote the first couple
of tributes I mentioned that I was probably the surprise choice to take up an assignment honoring a couple of my Tonio’s
Pizza Parlor corner boys, Rick Rizzo and Donald White, from the early 1960s who
grow up in the desperately poor Acre section of North Adamsville and laid down their
young heads in some now forgotten battlefields of Vietnam. A key reason for that judgment when the other guys
asked me to put a little tribute together that this year is the 50th
anniversary of my struggle as a military resister to that same war. A very,
very different storyline from Rick and Donald’s. I was the only one from our
crowd who at that time joined the internal Army resistance. I had refused orders
to Vietnam, did stockade time and that was that. I have, and others have too, gone
through the particulars of my experience elsewhere so that need not detain us
here. Besides this is about Rick and Donald. Now the choice seems right, seems
righter than rain. So let’s run with the thoughts about these brethren a little
bit.
Rick was a gung-ho guy, a
tough little bastard who imbibed all the anti-communist red scare stuff that we
were being force-fed but he was a true believer, a guy who really did want to
eliminate every enemy of America. In the early 1960s during what was still the
deep Cold War even if there had been some abatement in the national red scare
epidemic I had been almost as firm in my beliefs about the “commie menace” as
the next guy although maybe not as much as Rick. When Rick blasted us about the
latest atrocities by the Communists somewhere we all went ho-hum, even the
Scribe who was the most political of all of us. There were a few other guys,
maybe Frankie Riley whose parents were rabid Irish Catholics and serious archenemies
of the commies, who hung around Tonio’s like Rick but most of us just wanted to
get laid and have some booze, stuff like that. Regular high school guy stuff then,
and almost mandatory for life among the corner boys.
Rick signed on the dotted
line right after high school in 1964 I think with the idea of making the military
a career, a choice of many not going to college guys looking to grab a skill
while serving their country. In those days in the Acre, the serious working-
class section of North Adamsville and home to all the corner boys, not many of
the guys expected to, wanted to, or were smart enough to seek the college path.
Life was -graduate high school, get a job where you might pick up a skill, get married,
have kids, and after a billion years retire and nobody would have been surprised
if some young man decided to go into the military rather than be drafted to
have some choice in learning a skill. That was Rick to a tee.
When Rick came home from
basic or maybe it was AIT he was all spit and polish and frankly we looked up to
him whether we ourselves would enlist or not. (With maybe a couple of exceptions
for guys with some kind of medical problems or sole support of the family every
guy in the roving Tonio’s corner boy crowd served in the military.) Sometime in
late 1965 he got orders for Vietnam and we had a big party for him, as it turned
out the last time we would see him. In August of 1966 somewhere in the Central
Highlands of South Vietnam during a major confrontation Rick got blown away. The
news when it came to us was a shock and each one of the corner boys whatever
our subsequent views on that Vietnam War, or wars in general, probably to this
day has a little sorrow in his heart for Rick’s too young fate.
Donald White was slightly different.
He had gone to college for a year but just couldn’t cut it, was not his thing. Donald
never was much of a student, could not bear to listen when the Scribe would start
reading stuff out loud, something by a freaking faggot(then) named Allan Ginsberg
whom he was all hot and bothered over after reading the explosive poem Howl.
(Some recruiter from North Adamsville
Junior College came through the school senior year and grabbed a bunch of kids including
Donald who were not qualified to get into a four- year college to enroll in their
two-year program with the idea of eventually going to some other school). That drop-out
subjected him to the getting very familiar notice to report for induction from his
“friends and neighbors” at the local draft board. Instead of waiting for the other
shoe to drop Donald decided to enlist and grab a clerk’s job, maybe as typist,
as his MOS. Two unfortunate things befell him. One the war in Vietnam was
raging out of control with call-ups of addition manpower every few months and
so despite his clerical training he was assigned to an infantry unit in-country
when he got orders in 1967. Two, there were really no battle-lines in that damn
war like in Europe in World War II and so even lowly clerks had to act as infantrymen,
build perimeters, lay mines, dig foxholes and do sentry duty, or get blown away.
He, from what one of his Army buddies told us later, was in the thick of the firefights
when unit positions were under attack. One night when “Charlie” came over the
top Donald fell down, laid his golden blonde hair down in some muddy field.
All of us guys still
standing, pro-war, anti-war, Vietnam vets or “era” (like me) still around agree
that there was a very big difference between what got Rick and Donald to join the
war effort without qualms before 1968 and what TET and the endless calls for escalation,
more bodies chewed up did to the morale of the American forces and the possibilities
of winning. The no longer possibilities of winning. Most of us who did our military
service did so in the post-1968 and that reflected the chance in spirit even among
those who had not the slightest desire to resist (by the way not one of our Tonio’s
guys was a draft resister and like I said before I was the only military resister).
All this to say whatever our
personal attitudes then or now we had no wish for the death of any individual soldier.
Certainly not Rick and Donald. So maybe that is why I was the guy selected to
give this late eulogy for our Tonio’s fallen. Now included with tears for my
fallen corner boy brethren.
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