Remembrances
Of Things Past-With Vietnam Veteran Phil Larkin In Mind
By
Bart Webber
Frank Jackman had been put the finishing touches on
a short piece that he was going to present during the Veterans for Peace annual
Memorial Day for Peace program down at Boston Harbor near the major hotels that
dot the walkways there when a vision of his old elementary school friend Billy
Bradley came into his head. The piece Frank had been working on centered on the
terrible pressure by his family, especially by an old grandmother whom he
loved, that had been put on a Vietnam War veteran, Phil Larkin, to forget his
doubts about fighting in Vietnam and go and maintain the family honor. Frank, a
Vietnam-era veteran who did not see service in Vietnam despite being like Phil
an 11 Bravo, an infantryman, a grunt, cannon fodder once he got wise to what
the American government had expected him to do, had chosen Phil’s story to
present after all these years because Phil had been from Carver, down in
cranberry country in Southeastern Massachusetts not far from his own hometown
of North Adamsville. He had me Phil out in Southern California in the mid-1970s
when he for non-service related reasons had found himself running into what
would later be called “brothers under the bridge,” mostly veterans who had
served in Vietnam and who for one reason or another could not, or would not
adjust to the “real world”, once they returned from their tours of duty. Phil
had told Frank his story one night along a railroad “jungle” camp outside of
Westminster while they were sharing a bottle of cheapjack wine. Yeah it was
that kind of time.
Rekindling that Phil story somehow set Frank to
thinking about how a lot of working class kids like Phil, like Billy, hell like
him, if he thought about it always drew the short end of the stick. Always got
kicked around when they tried to reach for the brass ring. That was Billy,
William James Bradley, to a tee. Frank was thinking about the time that Billy
thought he had a shot at being the “next big thing” after Elvis lighted up the
night in the mid-1950s and made all the woman sweat, made every guy from six to
sixty start moving his hips in just that provocative way, start spending hours
in front of the mirror perfecting that sneer that all the girls were sitting up
in their rooms just waiting to take off Elvis’ face in the hopes of being the consolation
prize.
Of course the most dramatic kick in the teeth for
Billy, really the last straw before he decided that if the world was not on the
up and up then then he wouldn’t be either and began what would be a short not
so sweet life of crime and jail sentences, was when he lost a dance contest
held in the gym at the high school, at North Adamsville High, one winter night where the winning couples,
one from the group of twelves and under, the other thirteen to eighteen, were
to get an all-expenses paid trip to Albany to compete in the Northeast
regionals. Frank had been there that night in order to cheer his best friend on
(or the guy whom he thought was his best friend they never did quite figure
that out but if pressed both would call the other that designation at least
through sixth grade).
The way the dance contest worked in those days was
that the sponsors, a big radio station in Boston, WMEX probably, would put all
the names of the contestants into a drum from each division, two drums, one for
guys, one for girls (no same-sex or transgender stuff in those days, not for
public consumption event though one of Frank’s cousins shunned by the family
was well-known in Boston as a “transvestite” as cross-dressers were called
then). So it was totally arbitrary who your partner would be. Thus Billy had
worked like seven banshees to make sure he knew all the dance steps from fox
trot to stroll and back so if he got some dippy girl who had two left feet he
would not be stuck, would wow the six judges even if he wound up with a klutz.
Now in the world of competitive dancing, 1950s rock
and roll competitive dancing, not some old-timey ballroom dancing, modern dance
or ballet stuff you could be pretty wild by comparison to those more tutored
forms but there were limits. Limits set by sponsors, radio sponsors and
advertisers of stuff geared to kids, who were already under heavy pressure from
the authorities, read, parents, churchmen, school administrators, and
politicians to reign things in a year like 1958, the year of Billy’s demise. To
rein in the “devil’s music” which is what Frank’s mother called it and would
not allow it to be played on the family radio. (Frank, Billy too, hell a whole
generation got around that problem with the ingenious invention of the
transistor radio to keep prying parents at bay.) Billy didn’t get the message
though, didn’t want to, listened to his own drummer, praise be, maybe heard
something that none of the rest of the kids could hear. That is what Frank
thought afterward.
So you already know what happened, or can guess.
See Billy drew this young bud, this flaming red-headed girl, this Ida McCarthy
who every guy had wet dreams about. He had been her partner in a couple of
preliminary dance-offs on the way up to this big night. Billy saw Albany
tickets or something, something about Ida that set his twelve year old heart in
flames. Of course Ida knew who and what Billy was about but she had her own set
of dreams and the look she gave Billy when it was announced that they would be
a pair night would have killed a smarter guy, a guy not so hung up in his own
stardust.
Still they did pretty well, Billy kept himself in
relative check until the final pairings were announced, the two couples who
would face off to win the division. Billy and Ida were one pair. A couple from
Riverdale were the other pair. Maybe if the last song, the decisive song had
been a slow one, maybe a Roy Orbison tune, or Elvis being all dreamy things
would have worked out okay but as it turned out the last song was Dale Hawkins’
classic Susie Q, nothing but sex wrapped up in a song. Almost from the
first beat Billy was wired, was off in his own world. To say that he had been
sexually suggestive in his moves, to the extent that any twelve year old guy
was aware that some dance moves were nothing but sublimated sex (what did
Billy, Frank, the whole universe of the generation of ’68 know about such
concepts then)would be an understatement. Along the way Billy took off his tie,
took off his jacket, and maybe if he thought about it he might have taken off
his pants. But what did him in was when he went in back of Ida and started
grinding away to her motions. The kids in the crowd went crazy and even Ida
seemed to get into the groove.
Needless to say Billy and Ida stayed home while
that Riverdale couple went to Albany. For a few weeks afterward Billy and Ida
were an “item,” were considered cool, very cool and then Ida moved away, her
father got a promotion to some place in New Hampshire and Billy more and more
frequently turned in on himself, began to start doing the “clip,” the five-finger
discount in stores up in Adamsville Center which would lead him very far away
from the limelight, more like searchlights.
Frank had thought later, once he had been broken from
Billy’s spell by a couple of close call “clips” when he decided that reading
books was less dangerous to his life than stealing onyx rings and such, that
maybe Billy was always destined to be the fall guy, the guy who could be broken
on the wheel of life with no sweat. The year before, 1957, Billy had been all
hopped up to enter and win, he never was a guy who was beset by doubts unlike
Frank who then was basically shy and introverted, particularly around girls
unlike Billy who drew them like a magnet, a teen caravan contest. This caravan
business was sponsored by record companies mainly, maybe some radio sponsorship
on the side as well, usually smaller companies looking for that one “Sam
Phillips finding Elvis” moment that would bring in fame and fortune.
The caravan idea was that the record company would
go to various locales like North Adamsville, usually at the high school then as
now, a central institution in the life of kids, of towns and have open
auditions, have the winners from the regions go to Boston for a bigger version
of the same thing and the winner there would get a record contract (one record
and then whatever happened happened, a “one hit” wonder, or a miss usually just
like now). So Billy was all amped up to enter. Between his singing and dancing
skills Frank thought honestly that Billy’s singing was way ahead, he really did
have a good voice, had been the guy who would lead the doo-wop songs in back of
the elementary school on summer nights as the sun went down which would bring
the girls around all swoony and flirty before everything was over.
Billy was prepared, super-prepared you could say
that about him. Even had his poor mother who had enough to do handling Billy
and four brothers make him a sport’s jacket like the one Billy Haley wore. The
poor woman had to make the damn thing since they were as poor as church mice
and couldn’t afford to go to Robert Hall and get a ready-made one. Billy’s old
man sprang for the material and his mother made the jacket. See Billy was going
to cover Haley’s Rock Around The Clock so that jacket was important to the
effect he would have on the judges.
Well the big night came, Frank was there, so were
Frank’s parents to cheer Billy on so you know it was a big deal. Billy was on
fifth so he was a little nervous. Frank was nervous too because the third act,
a group of three sisters doing doo wop, knocked the place for a home run so
Billy was up against some serious competition. Billy came out looking good,
starting singing up a storm, got the girls, many from school, going with him
and then about half way through as he was swaying away, flailing his arms one
of the sleeves of his jacket went flying into the audience. The girls went
wild, then the other sleeve came flying off. Pandemonium. See the audience, the
girls, thought that was part of the act, thought Billy was doing it for them
not that Mrs. Bradley in a rush to get the jacket done hadn’t properly sewn the
sleeves on. Needless to say Billy didn’t win, that doo wop group was just too
good. Billy took it with what seemed good grace for a while and the girls at school
wouldn’t leave him alone, especially the two girls who caught the sleeves.
(Frank got Billy’s “cast-offs which helped him a lot in the getting to know girls
department.) But after that experience Billy stopped singing, stopped leading
that summer doo wop stuff that brought the girls around.
Maybe it was even before that, if you don’t want to
get into the branded at birth theory, buy into the sign, the mark, of Cain and
Abel stuff. In 1956 Billy despite his age, his young age, was a wrapped up in
the new rock and roll thing, the Elvis flood as anybody at ten years of age.
Certainly more than Frank, and most of the guys they hung around with although
every guy, young or old, old being then maybe twenty to schoolboy eyes was
starting to wear his sideburns just a little longer. Long enough for parents to
scowl at. Billy probably had a leg up on the Elvis thing, the rock and roll
thing from his older brothers and their girlfriends, especially the girlfriends
who would go wild when Elvis was played on the record player down in the family
room when those brothers had their teen platter (records) parties.
Somehow though Billy, maybe through some DNA thing,
or maybe just the hard fact of coming up hard in a poor family with few
resources, figured that just emulating Elvis was not going to get him out from
under the feeling he had that things were stacked against him. Stacked against
him except that overweening desire of his to break-out, to make his fame and
fortune through his musical talent. Frank had already known as that early stage
that Billy had a good voice because at school during recess he would croon out
the latest tunes and all the girls would be around him like flies. But Billy
wasn’t just depending on luck to get him through. In those days as part of the
effort by parents and other authorities like the Church (in their neighborhood,
in Frank and Billy’s neighborhood that “Church” was nothing but the Roman
Catholic one they you hear about so much these days) to curb and control the
rock and roll menace, the “sex” menace if you really wanted to know what
bothered them, groups of adults would
put together what today would be called “open mics,” places where kids could
win prizes, maybe fifty or one hundred dollars, showing off their singing
talents.
Every Friday night Father Lally, the youngest
priest at Saint Thomas Roman Catholic Church, presided over the weekly singing
contests sponsored by the church. The prize: a fifty dollar United States
Savings Bond. A big deal then,
especially to kids who thought fifty cents was a huge sum. At first Billy, like
Frank had noticed as well, was as caught up in the Elvis thing as any other
kid. But lots of kids were, good singers, girls too, so he figured that he had
to make his mark another way. Another sound that appealed to him was the beat
of Bo Diddley whose signature song Bo Diddley was a big hit at dances.
So Billy decided one night that he would cover that song. What Billy, Frank,
none of the younger kids knew was that Bo was black, black as the night as they
later found out. See they knew Bo from the radio, the transistor radio so they
didn’t know, didn’t think much about it probably what color skin Bo had.
But Billy found out that night, found out what the
race question was all about in an all-white Northern working class neighborhood
quickly that night. After he finished his song which was pretty well received
by the kids, an older guy, a guy already out of high school, came up to Billy
and said for all to hear that he did not know that Billy wanted to be a
“nigger” singer. Needless to say Billy did not win that night. Needless to say
that the next week he went back to covering Elvis stuff but without much heart.
Needless to say too that the road ahead for Billy dreams would always be paved
with pitfalls.